SANNNDAYY :D

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2011-01-11T21:51:00.003+08:00

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I'm thinking of a place to fly to;

2011-01-05T01:25:00.004+08:00

Paris/London/italy/spain/Boston/Washington DC/Canada/New York/Shanghai/Sydney

year 2OII

2011-01-03T01:22:00.009+08:00

2010 is over and I'm extremely glad. Thank you awesome people who were always by my side and made my days easy to go by. This year wouldn't be so fulfilling without you guys (:

I decided to post some pics which i had missed out for yr 2010:

jt's place cooking

Jon's birthday in Dec

foursome USS trip

My 22nd Birthday at MBS with YJR! thanks to my aunt for getting me the room

XH's birthday in Nov

My first visit to Kuishinbo for Anqi's 22nd!

Halloween at Night Safari!

Zouk on my birthday

homies on my birthday at Coca

P.S. Cafe with my NIE friends on my birthday

Teckhui's 22nd!

YY's birthday in Oct

Halloween

JB KTV with YJR!

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I want us to smile and laugh like how we used to. I want us to talk like we have got endless topics. I want us to feel like time always seem so short when we are together. I want us to always give each other small encouragement to make life easier to move on. I want us to meet often and as random as possible. I want us, to keep this friendship going on forever and ever, and making attempts to relight the candle when the fire seem dim. life's always contented with you guys around (:

and regards to my application to UQ, I had officially given up my studies there. Not because of money issue definitely.

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For year 2011:

I hope for even better health for me, my family & friends
Travel as often as possible
Make attempts to take and break and appreciate people & things around me
Be happier and easily contented

come back with pictures from my Europe trip! stay tuned!

HERE I COMEEEEE! :D

2010-12-21T17:00:00.000+08:00

Flying off to Europe in a few hours time! Yet another white xmas!Yippie!

I am glad that my flight wasn't cancelled! yet not so glad cos I can't be in SG to spend me&markie's first xmas together :(

Cya'll :D I'll be home right before the countdown for 2011!

markie told me: "You mum takes care of you from 0 years old to 22 years old and I will take care of you from 22 years old to forever (:" awwwwww so sweet :p

Listening to the songs you recorded for me! ♥♥♥

2010-12-21T02:12:00.007+08:00

♥♥♥Dedicated to Markie♥♥♥

I was told to write a post that could last for 10 days!

I spent the whole weekend with dearie! He was out with me shopping and feasting! hehe. fatness! We shopped everywhere, bought lots of stuffs, and decided to go for XLB at Nanxiang! slurps :p Then he left for MJ at his friend's place till 5am in the morning before waking up at 9am for Capoeira! We met up for shopping again! & dinner was at Coca! wooohooo~! YUMMMMYYYY :D

Dearie decided to accompany me on a Monday cos I was leaving on tues for my trip and he couldn't see me for the next 10days! he super emo, and make me emo as well :(((

trinkets of us (anyway i grew so fat & put on so much weight!) my goodness! arghhh! :

yummy yogurt ice cream!!! 3 flavours of mochi(s),nata de coco!!!!!, aloe vera! watermelon and 1 lychee. hahaha :D

WAH LAU EH! MY EYE BAGGGSSS!!! HORRENDOUS SIAA!!!

KTV on my jiemei's birthday! :D

Actually Markie's eyes is super small ok, not much white space left. HAHAHA STILL WANNA ACT BIG EYES! NNNNPP!

yum yum yum my xlb! slurps!

I became a terrible camwhore after dearie got his iphone4! hahahaha :D

My Markie is so amazing. I seriously don't know why. Eventhough I only know him for like 1 month & 1 week, yet it seemed like 2 years already! we talk anything under the sun, anywhere and everywhere! (Markie just speaks anyth without any considerations of location!tsk!) hahaha :D

He's like my guardian angel, cos he protects me very well and taught me how not to be taken advantage of. He's always there, like a solutions hotline. Everything is solved after a call (:

We talk things. Sometimes too much, and we will have very bad disputes. We argued about money cos I'm terrible at managing my finance. I am not realistic sometimes, and Markie will teach me how to think practically.

Despite this, Markie is still like my best friend. We laugh & gossip about our past. We would share how was our day and he is forever so attentive about what was I talking and would give me good suggestions when I need advices. Markie is no shy boy in front of me. We show no formality and are so comfortable with each other. He just behaves like how he is with his friends.

♥I love you, because everyday you will tell me how much you love me & miss me.♥ I love you, because you respect my thoughts and feelings. ♥ I love you, because you are so serious about me and will not try to toy my feelings. ♥I love you, because you will prioritise me before anyone.♥ I love you, because you are truthful about your thoughts and never try to be pretentious.♥ I love you, because you will try your best to protect me.♥ I love you, because you will consider my feelings before doing anything.♥ I love you, because you wanna share your future with me. ♥I love you, because you like and appreciate of who I am. ♥I love you, because of the many reasons why I love you.

Baby, please don't be sad & take care of yourself when I'm not around ok? Meanwhile pls rest well and had a wonderful xmas celebration over at JL's place! I wished I could join you guys! awww :( join the guys for MJ/clubbing after that too ok?! &&& I hope to see the new room when I am back! hehe :D PAINT TCO TURQUOISE! I'm gonna miss you badly :(

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!!!!!!!!! wah! I wan him as my bf! hahahaha :D

I only can say 岁月不留人! lol :p (markie is now rolling his eyes & say why I like that!)

aiseh aiseh, TP waterpolo VC & lifeguard lehhhhh!!!!! LOL! but now the 6 pacs now asking for abit of merger lah. hahaha :D

I better start going for a run with baby soon! we need to keep in shape and cannot be complacent. later all clothes cannot wear!

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Thank you baby for the 4 songs that you had sang for me. I love it. Please me guai when I'm not around & remember to miss me all day long ok! muacks ♥♥♥♥

What's wrong with me?

2010-12-17T02:34:00.002+08:00

I seriously need reflect on my attitude & tantrums. My poor bf is constantly riding on this emotional roller coaster ride. I feel so guilty about it that I told him I wanted to give up on this r/s. I am so bad!!!!! argh.

His love for me always exceeds the love I have for him, no matter how much I love him :((( I must really treat him better & stop being a such a kid. kick those bad habits away!

remind myself: I NEED TO TREASURE MY DEAREST BF x INFINITY TIMES.

p/s: boyfriend I love you. Thank you for being so understanding. & please try not to ask so much 'why'. gamsia. hahahahahaha :D

回忆很可怕；

2010-12-16T01:23:00.003+08:00

我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘

曾为他相信明天就是未来

情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望

我的心深深伤过却不会忘

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢?

伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗?

如果还有遗憾是分手那天

我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来

若那一刻重来我不哭

让他知道我可以很好

this song is running in my mind;

2010-12-14T23:47:00.002+08:00

飞机已离开机场

你选择了前往你的方向

不再迷惘

忘了我们爱的过往

忘了我给你的伤

学会坚强

从前的我不懂你牺牲多大

为我失去朋友不讲

还放弃了所有梦想

觉得没怎样

不会将心比心去想

让你慢慢慢慢失去了希望

能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你

我会仔细的聆听

你对我说的一言一语

我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心

对你好好的去珍惜

请你相信我的心还是爱你

我想再重来一次

回到过去弥补你的伤

没那种事

怎么做才能够停止

后悔竟伤你如此

不再放肆

为何总到失去才懂的难过

当你在我身边的时候

总是为我默默守候

都是为我的错

错过这难得的拥有

就让你爱我的心慢慢溜走

能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你

我会仔细的聆听

你对我说的一言一语

我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心

对你好好的去珍惜

请你相信我的心还是爱你

Happy 1st ♥

2010-12-14T01:17:00.002+08:00

Thank you baby! ♥♥♥♥♥

my new ipod nano for running! hahahahahaha :D

&&& the new BB bold 2! :D baby insisted that he buy this so his presence can always be by my side! (Phone is smth i can't live w/o) he got himself an iphone 4 too! bcos he dropped his 3gs into the toilet bowl! hahahahahahahahahhaa :D

I made him a calendar filled with love!

♥♥♥ hope you like it baby!

Today 13dec marked the first month we got tgt, yet it seemed like we had been tgt for many many years! baby, I had said what I wanna tell you in the letter, and to add on, nth is gonna change even these gifts don't come alright? don't be too hard on yourself (: loveyou!

i like life simple.

2010-12-13T01:17:00.005+08:00

I seriously have tons of pics to share, but no time! I am flying off to Europe in 8 days time! wheeeee :D (bf no sad ok, we wadsapp wadsapp! )

cut short, Me & Gerri went on a high tea at Regent Hotel on a Monday! Taitai wannabe ok! :p

Next up, deb's wedding last friday at Orchard Parade Hotel! and we went Timbre and rochor tau huay after that :D

Sat was spent with bf & family! we went to USS to catch the fireworks and Markie's bro treated us to Hardrock cafe for dinner! Markie drove me out for supper with the rest of his friends. Mutarbak is love! yum yum yum :D

Baby, hope you like my present! &&&&& you know Markie always sang me songs through the phone or webcam, but last night he literally sang LIVE to me. I felt so awkward can! awwww seriously! haahhaaha I feel so shy! :D

Look at Angel, so adorable! thats her favourite toy! she is a super drama queen okay tsktsk.

Baby got me a Ipod Nano today! yay yay yay :D & we had yummilicious ice cream and pudding plus baby's first time trying escargot! hahaha :D so funny! went town to watch Rapunzel! FINALLYYYYYY! chiong to Zara to get my coats! I can't resist my temptations and I gotten 2 for my Europe trip. tsktsk.

I am going to bed! I have so much to do yet little time! :(

MY BF WANTS A POST!

2010-12-09T23:58:00.002+08:00

Because my BF wants a post about him! Now he's striking and not singing me a song after like so many days since 'my heart will go on'. no good!

Sooooo BF finally got me a pair of bedroom slippers! we were waiting for a pasar malam to come before we get one! :D we got an uglier Melody cos the prettier one was twice the price! so not worth!

Went back to bf place for dinner. yummy yum yum! :D Markie's mummy did not cook our fav chicken tonight, but still I enjoyed the dinner! Actually both of us had nothing much to do, so I read him some stories from the Aesop Fables and help him squeeze those black heads from his nose! poor boy, his was screaming and his tears were streaming out. LOL! hahaha :D Our night ended shortly.

Deb's wedding, Markie's parents' bday and our 1st monthsary! so looking forward! But I doubt there will be any plans since Markie is on serious budget. oh wells!

I hope Angel will leave my Melody slippers alone and not meddle with her!

My world is beautiful (:

2010-12-08T00:10:00.002+08:00

Tis the season to be jolly, falalalalalalala~

2010-12-07T00:04:00.004+08:00

I finally submitted my last few assignments of the semester today! YAY! now its time to countdown to my vacation to....... EUROPE! wooohoooooooooooooo! miu miu, lv, loewe, chanel, prada..... come come come! :D

Jiayou for your exams!

2010-12-03T01:02:00.002+08:00

I ate like my tummy got worms for the past few days :((((

SOOOOOOO SAD TTM!!!! I NEED TO STOP EATINGGGGG!

Baby insists that he sings a new song for me every night (EXCEPT JAY CHOU) tssssssk! haha. BF you are wonderful! (:

my jukebox plays me a love song every night before bedtime! ♥ ♥ ♥

2010-12-02T01:09:00.003+08:00

We dream talk after dinner, so here's how it goes:

(Discussing our financial status etc etc)

Baby: Dear I wanna suggest to you a proposal. A few years down the road we will need money for wedding, so maybe a few months later we can set up a joint account?

Me: Huh.. must save money? Okok lets calculate how many banquet tables we need. You see ar, now market rate is about 1.6k per table on a weekend. and I want it at Ritz Carlton. So estimated if one year raise a 100bucks, by the year 2018 will be 2.2 k for a table. WAH!

Baby: then how many tables?

Me: ok you see i got alot of friends..

baby: I also got alot, those Tom Dick Harry. All must invite meh?

Me: No lah, I'm saying you see arh, my YJR, den Anqi, Th, my nie friends, my colleagues, my shanghai friends, my poly friends... then my family... my bro had 25 tables!

Baby: oh ok like that reasonable. (count count count) so roughly you need about 20 tables.

Me: Ok then you baby, how many you need?

Baby: my family very small, plus friends about 10 tables.

Me: ok we need 30 tables. WAH! 30 x 2.2k is ...... (he took his phone and start calculating)

Baby: Ok 60k! just nice 6 years, every month each person must contribute 500.

Me: 500!!!!!!!! so much???

Baby: ok 300?

Me: Huh can don't want?

Baby: Can..... but instead of 6 years it will take 12 years only.

Me: orhh...

and it goes on and on.........

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Papa Lim so sweet! Tell me to come often! :D I love the food prepared by mama Lim too! yummy! Angel super drama queen can, and she is a huge jealous pot. boohoo. cannot see me and markie together. but she is still so adorable! I love to cover her eyes with her ears! hehe :D

thank you for always cheering me up!

2010-12-01T00:18:00.003+08:00

Hey dearest, jiayou for your exams wed, fri & sat! :D

♥♥♥ Markie, You are AWESOME! ♥♥♥

2010-11-30T01:02:00.002+08:00

Baby thanks for being so understanding (: i know you are the best! :p

let me hear your crap crap soon! save that 1k for your furniture ok? (:

2 weeks like 2 years!

2010-11-29T00:14:00.002+08:00

boyfriend and I went on a weekend date to USS to catch the fireworks! yay yay :D

It was an awesome & funfilled day! after papa & mama Lim sent me home later, I complained to bf I was hungry and he picked me up for supper at simpang bedok for mutarbak! yummmyyyy! :D we had supper there last week too! tsktsk fat can, always simpang / 85!

having you is like heaven sent, always there for me and solving all the problems that I faced. thank you for being so caring and understanding towards me and you would never allow a chance to left things unsaid or undone.

I'm sorry for letting you having the thought that I didn't prioritise your feelings that night. I'm really thankful you are willing to listen to my thoughts and compromise with it (:

I love you, for being there to hold me tight and tell me how important I am to you. You are always so generous with your words, care and love.

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While walking home from Bedok 85 just now:

bf: really you know, its like we are together for 2 years

me: ya, so sad no more honeymoon, can i have honeydew?

bf: hahahahha (sarcastic) honeystars lah!

me: baby 形象形象！2 WEEKS ONLY!

& so my honeymoon period had officially ended -______-

Hero

2010-11-25T02:01:00.003+08:00

How awesome to have a bf to play and sing you a song to chase away all your tired mugging nights? I'm glad I've found one! yay yay :D

thank you baby for being here for me again tonight (:

♥♥♥My jukebox ♥♥♥

2010-11-23T01:40:00.004+08:00

My grandma's wake ended last Wed in the total of 9 days and 7 nights. The funeral was so grand and we had almost 3 sessions of chanting of prayers every single day. and It was at the crematorium that I really cried and hope she won't feel any pain.

"Ah ma, I thank you for bringing up papa. he would always go to you whenever he needed help. Without him, there will be no us. Please watch over papa when you are in heaven ok? Bless him with great health and happiness. xie xie ah ma"

It was during the funeral that I saw how much my father had aged. He was so old and fatigued. at the very last day of the funeral, he brought his comb to me and ask me to help him comb his hair. I was speechless. I combed it nicely for him, ensuring that every strand was in place. in the past, I would sit on your shoulder eating the malt candy and dripping onto your hair. Now the jet black hair had turned so grey. I wished we were back to childhood days when we where still happy. papa stop disappointing us. We want you back, really. I wanna see my papa & mama so in love again.

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Thank you Mark Lim, who had been with me all these while to bring sunshine into my life. I really appreciate what you had done for me. I enjoyed every single moment with you, chatting, laughing, gossiping and the quiet moments in the car where you will just sing along with any song.

For tonight, you played and sang me 'I do Cherish You' & '世界唯一的你' over the phone, to wish me goodnight and sweet dreams (: yay! you're learning all my fav songs too! I hope to see drums next time too! :p

I hope to spend more time together with you despite our super busy schedules. Jiayou for your upcoming exams! Work hard for the next 3 years in NUS! and your Capoeira and Water Polo!

Blissfully blissful (:

2010-11-15T02:51:00.003+08:00

I am so thankful that my ex bf had dumped me. You'll definitely have good karma for it because I've found Someone who deserve me (:

Bye Ah Ma.

2010-11-10T23:22:00.002+08:00

Ah Ma finally bade goodbye to all of us today. I did not cry. I was happy for her. She had finally ended all her sufferings and ready to find ah gong at another place to enjoy their times together.

She had been strong. She fought through her sickness. She was brave. She had lived to see 4 generations. And I know she will be watching us from up there (:

today was the first time I saw how papa was so fragile and old. His hair was so grey. He looked tired. I thought of my maternal grandma at home too. so many of my close kin were always beside me but I always took it for granted that they will be by my side. I felt really guilty. still i wanna say, cherish the people around you.

I guess the times we see our paternal side will be lesser after this wake. I don't know why, but it seemed like its only our family who is always so busy to turn up for any of their activities. I am really jealous of the kinship all my cousins and relative share. Since young, mum had always forbade us to be too close with our paternal side. its becoming a habit now.

I'm so lethargic today. school had been so busy that I hardly get to sleep. I could just collapse anytime. I'm so so so tired. For now, I just hope I'll have 48 hours a day.

& know what, finally * had shown * true colors. i'm utterly disgusted. But i seriously can't be bothered :/ go ahead and mess up with your life. I can't stop you from it.

Arrival via Brissy with no plans.

2010-11-03T12:47:00.009+08:00

Back dated for Brisbane trip in Aug 2010. I was alone abroad for an impromptu trip.

David Guetta and pretty starry lights with me on trip. Eugene and his friends drove to pick me up at the airport in the wee hours. And so happened that I knew them from tp too (: thanks tim & jialing! :D

Mitre Boys Home! aka OCS boys hut (all 4 of them plus the frequent visitor Tiong Han which added to 5) :D thanks yichao for your comfy bed. Felt so bad that you had to sleep in a sleeping bag in the living room :(

Uni of Queensland. Finally I'm here! crashed weisong's lecture and toured around UQ before heading home to have dinner whipped up by Stella! She's super awesome! Michelle, Kelly and xinhui too! wonderful hosts! :D and thanks pam & tessa for putting me at their Manors home. I moved out of the Mitre boys apt and crashed into the Manors. haha :D

I was out on friday touring Indroophilly alone before meeting Alvin for dinner in the city! we took a City Cat! so cool! its a ferry from St Lucia to the city! :D he introduced me to Mad Dong San. The korean food is fantastic and relatively cheap! we had bubble tea later :D I haven't seen him since yr 2006? haha, can't believe our next meet up was in Brissy! his housemate was my senior in Poly too! wah such coincidence! We chatted at his place which was a few apt away from Eugene's only.

We woke up early and headed to West End Market for grocery shopping! :D the Hungarian pizza is finger lickin' good can! that's Pam & my bff. Sadly they broke off after I left Brissy cos of personal reasons.

Bff and I went to Lone Pines Koala Sanctuary! Many many many many koalas and kangaroos!! aiyo so cute! haha :D had yummy popsicle too! we watched some animal shows and so happened that we were seated at the first row and the eagle had to gobble up a dead mice right in front of us! ewwwww~ We had subway and went home for dinner! Jialing was the cook that night! every night would be different people cooking. I super love yichao's mapo tofu. hahahaha :D Yichao & Tiong Han always drove us back to Manors despite like 5 mins walk home from Mitre st (:

I went Gold Coast alone on Sunday for shopping at Harbourtown! I didnt want to trouble bff after his marathon in which was at 6am that day. but i thought 10km was not a challenge to him. He used to be the fastest runner in OCS. I didn't knw until they told me. haha.

I spent super long time travelling can! I even went to surfers paradise just to get nougats as requested. it took me like 2.5hrs from my place to harbourtown and another hr from harbourtown to surfers! i was so happy that i wasn't lost. lol. cab would have cost a bomb man! I'm so familiar with surfers paradise and know exactly which shop to go to. haha. We shopped there thoroughly twice last year can. Movenpick ice cream is like one of the best ice cream i had before can! too bad sg doesn't have the parlour :(

I was on time for dinner, this time by James. He's so sweet to Tessa can. hahahaha! (internal joke)

I brought Pam to shop at Indroophilly! hahaha i'm super evil. she spent lots of money that day! I brought Weisong for dinner in the city too! to mds! I am so in love with the korean food can! and yes there were Nando's everywhere. apparently the one at Mitre street was one of the best. hehe.

I went to tour city alone while the rest goes to school! I went South Banks and then to shop everywhere. Oh it was my first time playing in a casino! i managed to win about 40plus aud from the 1cent jackpot machine. lol. bff treated me and pam for dinner that night! MDS again! I'm super in love with the bibimbap. they are authentic korean food plus along the street there were 2 restaurants! MDS1 and MDS 2!

This is Pam & Tessa's place where I was put up for a week. We would have movie marathons in the living room or the guys would come over to study.

It was a pleasure knowing them and hosting me so well!! Thanks everyone! There are plentiful of pics in Pam's DSLR but hadn't had a chance to upload yet. hah. I so wanna go back again! sooooooooon! :D

10 more days.....

2010-11-01T00:56:00.002+08:00

If I don't have you, there's no one to hold on to;

你不知道的事

2010-10-26T00:06:00.003+08:00

I used to have a beautiful glass. It was the gorgeous one that I ever had before for a long long long time.

One day, someone accidentally broke it. I thought it was fine if i glued all the bits and pieces back nicely. But I didn't realise it was no longer the one that belonged to me before. Someone thought since there were cracks, and it's ok making a few more to it. Gradually it was beyond repair.

Despite a broken glass, its still my favourite glass afterall. I'm trying so hard to keep it.

for the every text received and sent is like a million needles stabbing into my heart. i wonder why should it be this way. so much wanting to make things right, but i guess it's beyond repair if i were to do the job alone.

At the end of the day, I wished you were beside me to overcome my toughest times. my life's in a mess. i don't know how.

♥ THANKS EVERYONE FOR THE WISHES! ♥

2010-10-25T00:31:00.003+08:00

My FB is flooded badly! Thanks for all the thoughtful wishes everyone! :D plus SMSes & presents too! ♥♥♥

I'm totally overwhelmed! Happy 21st bday to Princess! :D

I visited my ah ma at ttsh today. ah ma was so tired today that she didnt even woke up to see us :( I know she is hanging there! jiayou ah ma! :)

期待着的却没有来；

my new toy

2010-10-22T00:42:00.002+08:00

Olympus E-PL1

Ah ma is so cute today, she gave me an angbao for my lunar bday just now. and wished me "score number one!" so i told her, "ah ma i very smart already, cos I'm a teacher now." (all in hokkien) LOL! sometimes she is just so adorable can.

I just read the yahoo news saying that since SGD is rising, so the top 3 best places to go are AMERICA, VIETNAM AND HK! so hurry go book your tickets! mom itchy backside last night and told me that she should had listened to me and booked our dec trip to New York instead. boohoo lah.

i'm so going to simlim tmr after NLB proj research to look for the casing for my cam! plus my hd casing needs a change too :( broke broke broke :( but before that, i'll be going to waterloo's guanyinma to pray for good health for my family first. this year is terrible :/ its almost the end of year 2010, hopefully everything will be smooth sailing. hais.

DUE 103 is a chore can. every week has a task to do! waste my timeeeee! I need to buy more children's books! I just spent about 60plus at the book fair that day can, aiyo so irresistable. if I have time, I'll elaborate each book ok! tata world, I seemed like growing fat from eating birthday cakes! UNCOUNTABLEEEEE!

Suddenly I just cried.

2010-10-18T01:18:00.004+08:00

I don't know if it was my migraine or what that caused me to be so tempremental. argh. I had migraine for the past few days already can :(

You know that path we walked today is super nostalgic to me. I almost could felt my heart stopped beating. It just reminded me of the days where we would walk from your place to town and back home again.

*

After proj meeting today, I went down to visit grandma again. It was so awkward. My whole family was there. (literally 4 + 1 sis-in-law) My dad walked out, and left 4 of us there to accompany ah ma. she was so weak, and constantly feeling sleepy. she couldn't eat now, cos her bleeding will start again once she consumes food. she wanted to eat badly, and whined like a child insisting on having barley with ice cubes, cos she was having fever and felt so warm inside her body and she thought having iced drinks would make her feel better. I was standing at the other side of her bed massaging her arms constantly cos she said her arms were so pain and sore. I had nothing to say to her, yet I hope I could help as much as possible. btw I was very pissed with a comment that mom made. (not to mention here)

I saw another side of my aunties and uncles at ah ma's hospitalisation. It was really heart warming. Everytime I was at the ward, I didnt wanna leave. I just wanna have the feeling forever. sadly I had to go off everytime becos of my assignment stuffs. looking at how all my aunties worries for ah ma always wanna make me cry. I just hope everyone would stay positive and strong! Even if ah ma was to discharge, she would probably just be home and wait for that day to come. there's like no chance for full recovery anymore. :(((

*

Days are getting worse and worse these days. I remembered Master Khor said that a guy will hate me for the rest of his life. and indeed I had met one. for now I can't really confirm about it, but I guess so? blame myself for being such a slut/bitch. And you who is such a sore loser as well. I'm glad that you smsed me to get out of your life and told me this was such a crap. Seriously the last thing you should do is lose your temper on a girl. thou I know this is the 3rd time, but still you should not have said that. but I have to admit that its my fault anyway. And pls stop smsing me and ask me all kinds of qn when u had deleted me away from your fb and all. this is so contradicting. I will just suck thumb and accept all kinds of comments like I'm leeching you and leading you on blah blah blah.....

Because I know who is in my heart, and no one could replace my boy.

*

YJR gave me a surprise at MBS that night. thanks babes! ya'll so awesome (:

btw, MBS is totally overrated. My level 31 room facing the marina bay was really fantastic, but the pool, park, staffs, crowded lobby and casino was not really what I had expected.

i was in my flip flop, longchamp and beach dress tgt with vivi. (we both very chalet-ish)the staff just directed us to the normal hotel room queue where it was super slow and tons of pple queuing (imagine First World hotel lobby in Genting) so we walked over to the other side, and I heard there was this lady in polo RL tshirt and a gucci tote checking us up and down. So what is it now? we can't afford? come on please. and when it was our turn the front desk told us we could go to the EXCLUSIVE queue for the casino members.(my aunt is a member) damn tsk. Next time go MBS remember wear a beautiful gown ok?!??! don't dress too sloppy hor! *roll eyes a million times* sorry i was not being arrogant or critical, but i detest people looking down at others for no reasons. argh lousy. I wont even wanna go back there anytime soon!

*

gotta sleep soon.
Tmr's DED presentation, hope it goes well *cross fingers*

Uncle Felix's place in Sydney (:

FINALLY OUT OF MY LIFE!

2010-10-15T01:07:00.005+08:00

I closed my heart, despite the date being so awesome.

Finally I made what I wanna say very clear.

It was the same ol' boy that I missed.

phews. Now I can concentrate on myself, since I have nothin' left hangin' :)
One major presentation on monday, project meeting on sunday at SMU?!?! omg. not fun at all. Yay yay, MBS later! :D
I'm stil clearing my assignments for now. bahhhh :/

When you know the feelings is not there, don't ever force it. - Lesson learnt.

SO MUCH REGRETS!

2010-10-12T22:46:00.001+08:00

FML SERIOUSLY. I AM SO EFFING PISSED OFF! ARGH.

WTF IS THIS MAN!!!! ASSUME ASSUME ASSUME!!!!! ARGHHHHHH!!!!

我终于说出口了！

2010-10-12T01:09:00.000+08:00

I was really optimistic, but now?

2010-10-11T03:38:00.002+08:00

Just 2 days ago I received an SMS from aunty nancy that ah ma is able to eat and drink now. But today, ah ma is bleeding again. Sighs. My optimism seemed like being thrashed down again. :((

Just completed my lesson plan and ded proj and studied my test for tmr. Really hope the content is inside my head! My weekend was well spent at home slacking and having family dinners! A 400$ Alaskan crab meal on sat and bro's bday treat on sun. Fat again! Going for hommie's bday celebration later at nite. October is a fat month! My kor's rabbit gave birth to 2 minis! :D

I'm so looking fwd to every sat for my family dinner! Love the jokes shared around the table. Hehe. My aunt just sponsored me a room at MBS this weekend! Tell me awesome anot??? Woooohooooo!

I'm anticipating all my frens birthdays happening this 2 months! Gonna be a great catch up! :D
as for mine, not really looking fwd... Hmmm

Tedious

2010-10-10T02:43:00.003+08:00

I'll end it soon. Give me a little more time! I need a stressball madly!

It's so distinctive that you know the kind of feeling you have is completely different.

为什么我的鼻子酸酸的？眼睛红红的？

2010-10-09T03:06:00.002+08:00

我鼓起勇气去问关于你的事。你在我身边就好。
没有其他人，我的世界还是一样。
但是没有你，我再也散发不出光芒。

my heart was so heavy today. so heavy till I can't even breathe or think properly. What's wrong with me recently?!?!

Its been a real bad few days!

2010-10-05T23:58:00.002+08:00

Eversince ah ma went to the hospital, my days are super emo like anyhow! everything just doesn't go your way. People blocking you when you are rushing for time. Buses don't come. long waiting q at the hospital, encountering weirdos and blah blah blah.... arghhh damn pissed. Not till today when I received an sms saying my grandma is in quite stable condition and she can eat now (: and uncle decided to let ah ma undergo the bone marrow thingy to test for leukemia. i know its really painful, ah ma u must endure ok!

School work is like %&%&^&. I am really happy to have all the supportive people around, helping me with assignments, zapping readings for my essay, blah blah blah... thanks lah everyone! hahahaha :D u guys super awesome!Completed my DED essay at 6am on mon morning! ONE DOWN 10 TO GO for this week! endless elearnings and LP, still got test can! this is crap :/ I think I should be able to go through this week? hmmm...

wooohooo~ i was offered either a return aussie ticket this dec or a lavish bday celebration! wow! hahaha. if i am going, this is gonna be my 3rd time this yr. I wanna go phuture phuture phuture ~~~~

Ah ma, stay strong!

2010-10-03T23:27:00.002+08:00

Ah ma is in critical condition and doctor had been transfusing blood into her hoping it could help fight the overwhelming white blood cells. Alot of us were there just now, and instead of the normal 4 visitors, they allowed 8 of us today. we took turns to go up. Alot of them could not control their tears. I can't believe that a highly skilled monk told my uncle that my grandma had only 1 more week left and my dad agreed too! plus doctor told us to try to satisfy what my grandma wanted. How can you predict how long my grandma is gonna live!??! plus u make my whole family to worried!! I am really agitated about it! I know my grandma is going to be ok! I want my family members not to feel depressed as well!

I know I am not emotionally attached to her. I see her a few times a year only. But I remembered when I was younger, papa would always bring me to her place and played masak masak with all my cousins. Ah gong who sat on the wheelchair would watch us play. I liked the old house. everyone was so happy that time. everything was simple. everyone had fun. it was squeezy and noisy during CNY chu2 every year, and all the kids would be in the room playing and the adults would be in the living room or kitchen.

After ah gong passed away, we all moved to a new estate. the house was more spacious, our family members grew, every year there will be a new baby or a new spouse. it was still so cosy and lovely. ah ma and all my aunties will be busy in the kitchen cooking and preparing food for us. Eventually uncle then called buffet instead of tiring my grandma. He never failed to bring the whole family together for any celebrations or praying sessions.

I enjoyed my paternal side very much, but yet my mum would always stop me from mixing with them. I know I seldom talk about my family. But bcos my dad & mum hadn't been in good terms for 10 years so we respected mum and kept a distance from our paternal side. I wanted to cry when I saw my grandma. but I knw I have to be strong and control. I don't want people to think I'm exaggerating or my family was down to put up a show. I wanna be close knitted with my family, I wanted time to turn, be back when we were 7 years old or younger before ah gong passed away.

Today when I saw aunty nancy's text telling me ah ma is in critical condition, i still had a cheek to reply saying i will go down on monday after school. i hate myself for not completing my 50% essay earlier! i wanted to spend more time there. really. I'm really close to aunty nancy, and looking at how puffy her eyes were just now really made me wanna go over and give her a comfort hug. she was the closest child to ah ma and she is always so nice towards everyone and she urged me to go home to do my work just now. (i don't know if you are reading this. if yes, pls drop a txt msg to ask her to take care)

I don't care if this entry is too wordy or wad. I just feel this yr is really a bad year! Why do I have to go through all these? I can't believe that my dad & mum & bro can quarrel over visiting my ah ma. I just fuck off and said "its my ah ma, I can visit her when I want to. I don't need anyone to tell me when I should do it. "

I AM SOOOOOOOOOO VEXED! AND I HAVE TO FINISH MY 50% ESSAY! ARGHHH!!!! I'll be visiting her after school again tmr. I hope by then the blood report will be out and everything will be ok!

I wished it was all you.

2010-10-03T01:00:00.003+08:00

I'm suepr tied down with my assignments. I read alot of readings and my thoughts are so scattered that I don't know how to piece them together :( i'll jiayou and finish doing it asap. 2 essays, 1 test,1 lp and fieldwork coming up. this 2 weeks i could barely breathe.

Paternal grandma is in the hospital now. When I visited her, I suddenly wanna cry. Life is so fragile. I hope her blood report is leukemia negative. I hate hospitals, really! my phobia is still there. pls let my grandma be ok, and all my family members to be happy again. We were supposed to celebrate her bday this weekend, but she was too weak till my uncle sent her to the hospital. I missed our family gatherings. :(((

I have no time for anyone recently. I felt really awful. I wonder where did all my time go to?!?! :( I can't wait for school to be less busier. October is a busy month!

Anyway can all these lan tao hua just shoo away from me!??! stop fb msging me, I seriously don't wanna reply! do i have to spell it out that i dont want to add u on msn or anywhere?!?! stop saying you knw my this friend and that friend. it doesnt matter to me. yayaya please all just buzz off, i don't have spare time.

Europe trip is confirmed. I hope I can make Tasmania successful in jan! Let me get out of SG soon! I can't wait!! I'll definitely go on my aussie trip in dec if I have spare cash. but I'm really tied :( SG makes me so hard to breathe. I hate everything here.

gotta rush my essay. i'm totally caffine intoxicated. I really wanan get rid of you in my mind, but its so HARD!!!!! how? I hope everything is good for you.

Marriot mooncakes, ecp, jewelbox, tco, old school, ikea. Awesome.

How about you?

2010-09-30T00:03:00.002+08:00

I am looking around my room right now. Alot of things were from you. All the corners of my table has gt smth from u. I wished the old times were back. I miss you, boy.

FAT!

2010-09-29T00:34:00.001+08:00

I NEED TO STOP EATING!

Life's a bliss.

2010-09-27T01:25:00.001+08:00

I hope no crap comes soon. (except assignment)

Eye opener.

2010-09-25T02:34:00.003+08:00

My 'ahmad' took abt half an hr to drive us to sch today. Awesome! It's like one third of my normal traveling time to school only!

I went town to meet up with fie today for dinner at Mandarin Gallery. She nvr fails to remind me about the objectives I need to set, and she's a friend who is supportive of what you are doing and will give you great advices. Having her advices just makes me wanna work harder and eventually achieve something in life, def not status or money. Cos at the end of the day it's yourself that u have to be accounted for.

But no matter how high each of us fly, we're still the very bimbo us hah! I'm missing my BBKL~

My 'ahmad' picked us up and sent us hm :) Mk texted and asked me to join him at Rebel when he was abt to reach :/ I was with my birkies can. How to go. Tsk. Changed to Arena later but I was already at ECP for supper! Hah. I wanna go phuture soon!!! :(

Gotta go slp. I'm excited abt tmr! Haha. Contented!

overdue pictures....! I'm so lazy.

2010-09-23T22:07:00.002+08:00

So, I fall sick again with fever and flu. recovering in process. my ankle too, its not behaving these days. sighs. School had been busy, no actually not. cos I havent been doing my assignments which is piling up like a mountain. datelines are everywhere in sept/oct/nov. looking at them makes me really so so so sianzxzxzxz. I'm so no life ttm! although fridays are my no school days, yet i'm gg back to school for project meeting :( luckily my 'ahmad' is driving tmr, so he'll be picking us up to school. hehs, i can sleep longer! YAY YAY :D

After I got back from Brisbane, I went 3x of Timbre Sbstn with ss clique & 1/3 yjr :

Ben & Jerry's Chunkfest 2010!

Oh this tarot reading guy said that I am a person who cannot balance love & work. I should learn how to work lesser and put more effort in my love life. hmm yjr thought this part wasn't quite true.

Saw sk!

YJR YAY!

Holland V 3 Monkeys!

2am dessert bar!

76bucks for 3 dessert n 4 teas.

Clark Quay Taiwan Food fest!

Togi Korean food to celebrate OHQ's birthday!

Mooncakes and tea appreciation at jy's place specially prepared by Ng papa :D

My sony cam is officially gonna retire soon. hmm I'm thinking of getting Sony NEX-5. pics are all on fb.. will update on brisbane trip soon! :D

Monday doesn't seem blue (:

2010-09-20T23:34:00.002+08:00

Last week's menu: Tuna&pumpkin w mozzarella cheese sandwich (super successful cos my 2 cussies asked for more!)
This week's menu: Avocado&egg w smoked salmon sandwich (successful again cos I toasted it with some mozzarella cheese for mum to try and she said nice!)
Next week's menu: Ham&Jam sandwich (this one is confirm chop chop nice!)

p.s. I MADE THEM! I AM INSPIRED TO COOK! LOL!

AWESOMEEEEEEE :D

I got super huge crave for snowskin mooncakes and I had been like being grumpy about it. So today I went to Grand Hyatt's booth and got some home for MY OWN CONSUMPTION. LOL! :D yum yum! I just had Lychee Martini just now! wow! haha :D I'm still craving for my Marriot's snowskin durian...... :( I don't know why no one bought it for us this year. all those that came were traditional ones which I totally don't like. and mum wanted to bring me out to buy, but i was too lazy to go out zzz.

2 more days to mid autumn festival and to the end of the mooncakes crave! the only bad thing now is I got cough, sore throat and flu plus my ankle is failing on me again!!!! :((((

2010-09-18T01:01:00.002+08:00

我终于也说出口
其实很爱你但从没认真说过
或许是我的错
多在乎你却只放在心中
不要问我为什么
因为爱你这就是我的理由

我还能做什么你已经不爱我
我一直都爱著你难道这还不够
我还要做什么你才不离开我
我知道你已无心再继续看著我

一心想离开我

Apple launched a new ipod nano!

2010-09-18T00:28:00.001+08:00

I want it in black or the exlcusive red 16GB! (engrave if possible)

thank you! :D

I think I forgot how to love;

2010-09-17T01:49:00.003+08:00

Can someone just tell me whats wrong to live in my own world, having my own space and spending my own time? hmmm.

Not that I'm mean, I was just being direct.

Guilt trip,

2010-09-17T01:27:00.004+08:00

BUT WHY SHOULD I?!??!

TODAY WAS AWESOMEEEE!

2010-09-16T00:31:00.002+08:00

I had 2 surprises today! YAY :D And there was smth that totally brighten up my day! :D SOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPYYYYYYYYYYY!

Hello person 1, its been almost a year!
Hello person 2, its been 5 freaking long years!

:D :D :D :D I'm a super happy kid! except for just one tiny thing. boohoo.

Boy I miss you terribly

2010-09-14T01:14:00.002+08:00

I just wished I could run to u right now and give u a big hug, assuring everything is ok.
I don't care if we dont dine at fanciful restaurants or go to awesome places, cos being with you just makes the picture perfect.

I really wanna see you, but I just couldn't bring myself to. Text me and tell me how u feel. Cos I seriously don't have the courage to find out from u anymore. Pls ok?

My Birthday Wishlist

2010-09-13T23:54:00.002+08:00

Gucci tote bag (maybe can get during Europe trip)
Ipod nano in dark blue
Baby-G watch
TCO Return to Tiffany Bracelet

Damn practical right?!? Can't believe I'm down to this! HAHAHA :D Lets see how far I can achieve this year! JIA YOUUUU LAH SANDY TAN!

Seriously I fucking don't care.

2010-09-13T00:55:00.003+08:00

Week one of school has ended. I hardly got anything done! I seriously don't understand why these books are so expensive! tsktsk.

I'm getting really awful comments from everywhere, but they don't knock me down. Thanks for those who stood beside me. All I can say is, don't comment if you are not in the picture. I'll appreciate if ya'll can stop assuming.

When I'm sad, you all said it was stupid. & when I'm happy you thought I was all out foolin' around. great.

Frankly, I am not busy because I had been randomly dating other guys. I am really busy with school, home and catching up with my friends. So plzzzzz stop judging can?!?!?! & if you'll wanna think I am materialistic, let me tell you. I am being REALISTIC & FRANK. its no longer those younger days where everyone tried to be pretentious. I can't be bothered to explain ok?

School assignments are loading me like crazy terribly. I had a hard time understanding sometimes :(

Regarding Raymond, hmm....guess we are good like this right now. being occupied with our own stuffs to do. Although I'm not sure what's at his side, but I guess he should be doing fine. No doubt, i still misses you, and the things we used to do together.

June Melbourne & Sydney trip!

2010-09-07T20:58:00.000+08:00

Day 0-1 Melbourne: Plum Apartment

NGV and Arts Market

Yay to my pandora bracelet and the 21st bday card belated from boy (:

Day 2: Morning crave for Mac

Flinders Station

Krispy Creme & Lord of the Fries!

DFO with Maria (:

Korean BBQ dinner with Maria & BF

Eureka Skydeck with boy! Awesome! HAHA :D

Crowns Casino! Managed to get chips for Kong family (:

Day 3: GREAT OCEAN ROADDDDDD!
boy almost could not got back cos of my white chocolate :(

Day 4: Mt Buller for Snowboarding!

poor boy vomitted and felt so uneasy for the journey home :(

Day 5: Sydney @ Aunty Eve's place (:

HUGE HURRICANES RIBS! must order a week in adv!

Darling Harbour

Day 6: Whale Watch, Sydney Opera House & Uncle Felix place for dinner!

Day 7: Road trip to Woollogong and Kiama!

Blow hole and Weekend Market!

Wildlife Kangaroos! we fed them pears!

Day 8: Blue Mountains

Boy had rare Kangaroo meat! eeee super not nice! tasted like pears (internal joke lol)Pancakes on the Rocks! We are super greedy kids :p

Happy Birthday to you :D

2010-09-06T00:03:00.002+08:00

my heart never felt so much lighter. yay yay.

it was an impromptu trip to Brisbane and I travelled to Gold Coast again as well. Cannot imagine how did I do it all alone by myself. School is starting in a few hours time, I feel so outcasted cos I don't know whats going on! shit. I shall catch up tomorrow, somehow hehs. super laid back and chill lah me, I need to build my momentum again. sianzxzxzxzxz.

Standing strong standing strong standing strong! :D

back with my Melb & Syd pics! finally got all collaged!

I almost fainted at Comex today and I vomitted all my lunch. tsk. my weak body can you please buck up a bit?

Come back ok?

2010-08-29T19:24:00.002+08:00

Days are so hard to pass these days when I am alone in a foreign place. I wished you're by my side. Alone here don't make me feel any better. I just want you to be part of me for everything I do.

Now I know what I do really want. My dream that I used to think of wasn't exactly that perfect and suddenly just don't want to go ahead with it anymore.

"you know like you studied very hard for the exam and you thought you could get at least an A,but you failed it. ya its like my r/s where i put in so much effort and there was nothing at the end of it."

I just wanna start everything from zero. I no longer wanna think about what had happened in the past already. Lets work things out can? please?

checked in and waiting for my 320pm flight.

2010-08-25T14:46:00.004+08:00

i'm at T1 gate C20 waiting to board my flight. I don't wish to come home any time soon. I'm gonna take this trip to recover and pick myself up again. Its been really bad. Hope being alone and spending some personal time will make me feel better when i finally choose to return back here.

Its my impromptu escapade. To somewhere with great air, good scenic and quality personal time. Sometimes i just felt i got guts of a lion.i clicked this flight last friday, without thinking, without checking all the timings and best thing was i didnt figure out my passport will be expiring soon. I'm crazzy.

Bye sg. I'm gonna miss you, boy. Really.

I will be 3827 miles apart from you in a few hours time. I don't wish to come back.

2010-08-25T01:59:00.005+08:00

FT card reading (part x):

FT: you got bf?
Me: don't know yes/no.
FT: can see from the cards is on and off.
FT: 有缘still, but if want to be together must work things out.
FT: He is now thinking of only work and money, no love. both of you have your own things to do also.
Me: Wont be together again right?
FT: this all depends on you and him, how you both want to work things out.

I bought a one way ticket to the other side of the rainbow to find back all my smiles.

zoo trip with YJR rawks my sockies LOL!

2010-08-25T00:39:00.003+08:00

I really wanna upload my aussie trip! I'm collaging Day4's Mt Buller can! But I know I cant finish tonight with so much stuffs left undone on the floor.

Give me some time ok people! zoo first!

I'm happy with YJR in my life all these while (: so contented with them around. Lets hope nth will bring us apart and our kinship will stay long long long! 60 years, 70 years.... as long as we live! hehe. imagine 10 years down the road, when all of us have kids.. hahaha... super epic lor this scene! :D

Anyway I am very happy that my GT is attached okay!!! :D congratulations! 3 years later can plan for marriage! hahahaha :D

The awesome fun we had :D

2010-08-23T01:48:00.004+08:00

YJR zoo trip & dinner with my mummy @ T3 Crystal Jade. I feel so blessed with them around (: We talk crap, laugh crap and sabo crap. lol! we love jump shot madness! :D I think we jumped more than 10 times can! LOL LOL LOL!

Time flies! we already knew each other for about 5-9 years! THAT IS SO COOOOL :D

More outings and celebrations to come! YAY YAY YAY :D I AM VERY EXCITED TO THE MAXXXX! really missed out too much of them already.

Will upload more when I am free. I have tons of things to do! hmm and i do feel the excitement building up!

奇怪的是，我们两个人总是默默地离开，从来不清清楚楚的说出“分手”这两个字。为什么？是怕伤害对方吗？

I thought I was ok?

2010-08-22T00:50:00.002+08:00

There was a sudden flashback of the scene at the hospital. It was so clear in my mind. Every single part of it. Tears started to whelm up. I felt extremely scared. For that moment I just wanted to be by your side.

All the guilt inside me that I was so useless at that point of time, I couldn't do anything, and you over the phone saying everything was too late while I was waiting for them at the taxi stand.

I really thought I was important, and you needed me. I really thought so.

Despite everything and all, I really don't wanna recall the past, bear any grudges, blaming whoever or talk about anything anymore. I wished everything could start from zero again. I really wished to. nothin' much to say anymore.

If you are reading this, I wanna tell you I'll still be standing by the side and waiting for you, no matter how long & bad things are gonna be;

Gerri's "18th" Birthday Celebration @ Conrad Hotel on 8/8/2010

2010-08-21T00:27:00.000+08:00

MY ESCAPADE IN A CLICK!

2010-08-20T00:58:00.003+08:00

plus a Farragamo wrislet hp chain & new birkies. arrow3

My objective;

2010-08-17T00:00:00.002+08:00

I had a great time at lunch with my paternal family. Darrell's dad treat and I told Aunty Nancy must be the money he won from Crowns. haha. :D I cannot explain how nice both Aunty Nancy and Uncle were. She kept reminding 'us' to meet up for a meal soon.

Everyone was happy and laughing (esp grandma) at my eldest uncle's jokes. Grandma had amnesia and sometimes she couldn't recognise us. But everyone would always make a joyful occasion for her. Uncle kept reminding the objective I want to achieve, and correcting me time and again when I told him mine.

alot of things, there is no way and no point for reconciliation. I won't be so corny to say its all fated. But alot of times is not about can or cannot do it, but more of want or don't want to do it. I need to chase back what I had lost all these while. Its all enough (:

Baby click!

2010-08-11T22:04:00.000+08:00

Can't wait for all these to be over;

2010-08-10T23:49:00.004+08:00

I'm anticipating my rainbow after this rain. & hopefully everything comes back intact (:
My rainbow would be the most beautiful rainbow amongst all! I can see it forming part by part every single day (: yayness!

Have faith, lets walk this through hand in hand. I know everything will be ok, just a little more sparks (: I'm creating! :D

I wished I had like 9857434 hours a day :(

2010-08-10T00:44:00.000+08:00

This weekend was really short! despite like meeting my bb for the consecutive 4 days but I felt we didnt do anything much :( I understand we have to take care of ah ma and uncle and everyone, so we can't go out as often like how we used to last time. When everyone is out, we have to stay at home and look after ah ma. We can't let her be alone. hmm. me understand (:

& our plans had to be called off because of financial constraints. Bb's getting all his 'dreams come true' soon, so we cannot anyhow spend money, moreover he is not working anymore, so we cannot put stress on his pocket! *must remind myself!*

Everyone is so happy about my changed r/s status! haha I know I havent been like changing my status for the longest time, and when I did it yesterday, many people came to 'like' my status at FB! so cute lah everyone! ok I mean for those who didn't know I was tgt with bb. thanks everyone for being so happy for me that I'm off the shelf now, blissfully attached. LOL LOL LOL! :D

some pics taken last week!:

With other TAs at Hei Sushi! :D

They call this the Channel 5 table, lol!

My bff and best supporter in PRPS :D love ya Charissa Chern! definitely gonna miss our canteen breaks and library gossip corner! awww~

All of us in RED cos its National Day Celebration! :D

She is so beautiful! our lead singer for Sing Singapore team Triple Talent :)

After so many days of not seeing my hunny darling! I missed him sooooo much can! super love sick. hahahaha :D I had been taking cab these few days just to chiong to see him. but I think cab and mrt arrives at about same time but totally different cost! tsktsk. I was totally so happy when I finally got to see him and feel him beside me again! yay yay :D

My hunny boy got deferred again, so I called this pic his 'first book out' LOL! bb brought me for yummilicious korean food! no need go fep already! Iluma's also not bad! hehe.

Saturday was out with hunny! we wore the same tee shirt we bought in Sydney. hehe. We got the same size but mine became a skirt, and baby insisted that I should wear legging inside. tsk so hot! And with our PR watches *tititititi* haahahaha...! noticed we wore our watches on our right hand? for me was cos I'm a left hander, but its his habit x)

We went MOF for dinner before going to Timbre! The Good Fellas again! We are super big fan of them! hehe. Jt say its really good to have such a hobby btwn a couple. I think like so fun! haha :D We can enjoy food and great music! super love love to max can :p

Bb & I had some HTHT that night. I understand where is your stand, and I really liked to hear them before everything just explodes like a volcano. I cannot let history repeat itself. We must be always there to ask, listen, explain and to understand. its impossible to keep quiet everytime.

Just like today when we were heading for our Nan Xiang XLB, we talked about our trip, but I insisted that we should go ahead, forgetting my bb's pocket and all.. hmm, sorry bb my bad. It already very difficult and stressful for him to handle all the stuffs thats going on and I would wanna overcome everything together with him. So I cannot be an additional burden :(

Time for bed soon, I have an urge to go for a jog when darling told me he's going to the gym tmr. haha. lets see what time I'll crawl up from bed. hehe. tata world, goodnight hunny!

Though I know it's never easy-Yellow Ribbon Project;

2010-08-08T02:55:00.002+08:00

I wanna be the person to overcome it together with you, and not the burden that you have to carry with you. It's not gonna be easy but I'm embracing this storm bravely. I know it'll be better in time. I have to learn how to control my temper and stop venting it on you.

It's really good to be able to see you for the past 2 days having good Korean food and Timbre substn tgt. I wished time could just stop, where we were once happy and enjoying ourselves. Sad thing is nothing could stay stagnant. Everything happens and changes. I have to build my courage to overcome all the difficulties I'm gonna face. I'll never complain that I'm tired or even wanna give up. Never.

I hope better days will come by.. Just for you and me.

I WANNA GO SHOPPING LEHHHH!!!!

2010-08-05T00:00:00.000+08:00

FINAL WEEK OF TA! YAY :D

2010-08-04T22:01:00.004+08:00

I wouldn't wanna mention what had happened last week. All I could say was I witnessed every single scene, feeling really helpless. sighs.

5 weeks zoomed off really fast! All my observations ended! yippie! I only had problems with my NSC. As I predicted, my classroom management was marked down again! wah sianzxzxz to max! most pointers came from my adhd boy. so unfair! like out of so many people only my class has. boohoo. even my CT commented that all these NSC are too idealistic already lah! plus my class was a mixed ability class, how can you compare with the high ability classes. zzzz. NEVERMIND! over already. Anyway my CT really gave good appraisal for my teaching obs! super happy! :D she knew her class well, and knew that she should not marked so harshly on me. hehe.

And for today, my adhd boy was talking non-stop was I was teaching comparing fractions. So I gave him my marker to come up tot teach. He really tried his best to teach the class, but no one understands. but everyone enjoyed the fun thou. haha. I took over in less than a minute, telling them its not easy to teach at all. haha kids.

my new love: mummy insisted she buy for me! HAHAHA :D chio to the max yay yay!

Boy's army deferred! I'm happy that I can now spend my one month vacation with him! :D bb you better keep some time for me ok! love you.

I hope the huge tide will be over soon

2010-07-28T21:16:00.002+08:00

I have to be strong during this period of time. I must not be a crybaby now and then. I cannot be overly paranoid or sensitive over matters. Yes, I am going to work towards it.

I miss my kong.

2010-07-28T18:19:00.004+08:00

I received a saddening news today before my CT observation. I was so worried and affected about it. sighs.

CT Observation 1 :

On my part, I felt that I didnt do well cos of class management. When I spoke to my ct abt it, she said she wasn't much looking into class management and more of teaching ideas only. which meant I escaped somehow. likely she knew how her class was and I was new, so she didnt really take consideration into that. There were some minor areas I had to take note of only. I was rather upset with my class today, cos they were abit noisy and uncontrollable. I'm afraid they will be like this when Sup and NSC sits in tmr. I am so stress. Initially was only Sup alone, but NSC told us at the last min that she was coming in and had to send her our lp by 9pm. arghhh. super stress! I reflected on myself later if my class was too noisy and all, or was I too anal about noise and minor stuffs. Probably I set high expections of them to behave well when my ct sits in, over demanding? Or was it like you know I could not handle the bad news and I started to feel quite helpless about it? I scolded them till my tears wanna burst. seriously. Like this was my very first time so angry about it. I don't want them to be like this tmr. really. I am so scared. hais. 2 more obs to go, and let me clear by this friday. Rushing all my lp for obs now. so much things are lagged at the back, gonna clear it by next week. I miss my bed super much.

This week had been seriously torturous, I thought it was a good news for me to clear everything by this fri, apparently it wasnt. sighs. I am now praying very hard for her recovery. I hope she can pull through these 2 days. God's so unfair, how can you suddenly decide to want to take a person's life away without giving any notices before hand? She had been so nice and friendly everytime. Please let her discharge from ICU soon, will You? I wanted to go to the hospital right now, but I guess it wasn't anappropriate time to go. sighs. I don't wanna mention anything further about this, cos I know she is going to get well by tomorrow! I KNOW!
jia you........we can't wait to hear your laughters again. I really feel quite useless.. I can't see to help in anything at all..hais..

Baby I miss you alot too, really. Once my stuffs are cleared, I might take a MC this Monday.

I am so lame :/

2010-07-28T00:26:00.000+08:00

[c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] says:
aiyo bb ar
u are my pearl in my heart leh
i where will want to see u sad
sannndy says:
heart where will have pearl de..
u dun bluff
thats tumor
[c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] says:
-.-
choi

From the bottom of my heart;

2010-07-27T08:38:00.003+08:00

I feel so unappreciative of what my boy had done for me sometimes. And for this I can slap myself a million times for picking up a fight with him over nothing. I'm trying hard to control what he called my 'princess temper' and not quarrelling over peanut matters. And you know, despite every single time I'm like this, he'll always do silly actions just to hoax me and put a mega watt smile on my face.

Baby, you are really very important to me, just like I'm the brain and you are my heart. We can never do without each other. I don't know what made me wanna type this, but I don't wanna miss a chance telling you how much I treasure you and always want you to be by my side.

While typing this I wanna cry already can. I finally know what's time flies and I absolutely don't want this Sunday to come so fast! :(

One more week.... :(

2010-07-25T23:17:00.003+08:00

Boy was super irritating can, kept telling me "one more week/7 more days..." I am emoing like madness lah. My tears just filled my eyes and it started to trickle once I heard them. I AM SUPER SAD U KNOW ANOT RAYMOND KONG! :(((

Anyway I was out at Phuture with boy and his friends. Partied till 4am can. super zonked out lah. haha :D funnn! me love! but after he witnessed how I was approached at club, boy refused to let me go clubbing anymore with my friends! I was begging and pleading him, and all he said was "over my dead body.." LOL! so I asked "I can only go if you are dead?" he said "yes...." -.-
super tsktsktsk cannn! AND I SAW MY SHANNON BOYYY! OMG! SO CUTE! HAHA YAY! :D
I dunno if my boy was jealous when he hugged me. hahahahaha :p

Today was out at town to polish my tco necklace. hehs and we had lots of food! my tummy wanna burst already! plus I put on 3 kg since feb can! :(

Despite having like a mountain of hmwk to mark, I am heading to bed soon, so tired can! I can't wait for TA to end, obs to end, and hols to come!

I wanna manage my emotions very much. *Pouts*
T.T

Love, should be happy and enjoyable.

2010-07-23T00:23:00.002+08:00

I'm super lethargic to max. Weekend hurry come, I need a break, a new bag, a new bracelet, and a good good manicure.

10 more days to go. Time is so precious but I can't seem to get a share of it. sighs. I'm really very affected and emo about it. I wonder how am I suppose to go through all the days w/o you?

I need to change my mindset super much!

2010-07-20T00:18:00.002+08:00

Sat:

At Uncle Bobby's place having bbq and everyone enjoyed themselves (: WN was super nice to bake David a bday cake thou everyone was complaining that the cake looked like 2 pieces of black 'fa gao' held by a cement in the center. haha. what a description lah! cos the oreo cream really looked like some cement or something. lol. but its effort that counts! So sweet to have a friend to bake you a cake on your bday (: cab home later from jurong, super tired and still had to chiong my lesson plans. argh.

Sun: David treated us to Ion's Watami and we got him an ipod nano for his birthday (: I bought a zara belt and a SK necklace for aunt's bday. Zara was having mad sales, but i got no shopping urge! what is wrong with me??? :( I don't feel like shopping recently! I feel so upset can. boohoo.

Anyway gotta chiong lp again. I was at the sick bay today cos i had an abdominal pain and I almost wanna faint during flag raising. it really scared me out. luckily the pain subsided after lik a few hours. phews. Almost gt a SS impromptu lesson obs today! but i managed to escape. hehs. Hope my tummy feels better tmr.

My boy is serving the nation in 2 weeks time. My feelings went up and down like a roller coaster. Part of me feeling so emo about it, yet the other part tells me that I'm matured enough to handle it. plus he'll definitely book out during national day and there wont be 2 weeks of confinement. hmm. I feel so like...... sad. I get super affected. I wanna spend more time with him but I can't cos I have too much commitments and he had to meet up with his friends too. I don't know how should I juggle my time properly. Yep and I'm already scarificing my sleep just to maximise all my time already. Unless boy has something to do, then I would go catch up on my sleep. '

I'm like totally very screwed up in all ways lah. I had also been taking lots of med recently and putting my health at risk, not knowing what side effects they have on my body. yeah, i'm really taking my health like a joke. I have no choice, I feel damn crappy. I hope all these bad feelings goes off soon.

xoxo.

Endless fall sick.

2010-07-19T22:04:00.002+08:00

Find a partner, talk about future, get married, raise children.
What exactly is the appropriate age to really start all these?

you say: "We try to work out ok?"
I say: " Hope so bah...."

I have to kick away my princess temper.......

Another brand new journey

2010-07-19T01:57:00.001+08:00

Good luck to me and other ST who are going to conduct lesson for their first proper time.
JIA YOU :D

I'm feeling super ultimate stress.

Scary!

2010-07-16T23:02:00.005+08:00

I woke up at 4am and realised I was covered with bumps all over! It was itchy at the same time! I got so freaked out and started to cry then mum helped me apply all kinds of lotion on my body and I took some med before going to bed again. my skin was like millions of needles piercing when i leaned on it. I thought I was going to die at that time and wanted to wake mum up to go to A&E or call an ambulance. I didn't know allergy to antibiotics can be so scary! Thou I knew I'm allergic to certain painkillers and if i ever consume them, my eyes will swell, but lil did I know I was also allergic to other medicine as well :s

Anyway luckily everything subsided, and I went to my GP later in the morning to follow up.My eyes still swelled a little thou :( Boy came down to tamp to have dinner with me and checked out my condition before he went for his training. so sweet! We met only for 45 mins before he had to leave :( yay yay tmr we're going uncle bobby's place for bbq! sunday will be celebrating david's bday!

I need to chop chop get my work done! :D
I realised I pretty mean sometimes but I really can't help it can. LOL! urm... haha yay yay baby ordered me a HK casing! hehe. I so feel like buying something now can. hoho.

2 weeks more..... :(

thank you baby for your support & care all these while (:

2010-07-16T00:23:00.002+08:00

I'm still at my math lp skeleton. shit. hurry chop chop think of ideas and finish it! 11 lp and one reflection up next! I miss my bed! I miss my baby too! super worn out to max. rashes rashes go away. don't ever come back again.... booohooo...

Filled with L O V E

2010-07-14T23:40:00.007+08:00

I was sobbing so badly over the phone with baby just now, cos of my super bad day. And boy came later and accompany me throughout. thanks baby, love you much much :)

I know I always throw big big tantrums like a child. sorry ok? smile :) HAPPY 20TH! :D

GREAT REUNION AFTER SYDNEY! :D

2010-07-14T00:15:00.003+08:00

It was a great catch up dinner with Aunty Eve, Tim and Aunty Nancy's family!
Thanks Aunty Nancy for her treat, AGAIN! I feel so bad can. Next time when Aunty Eve returns, it'll be our treat! hope Aunty Eve loves the present from boy & me. hehe.

And Aunty Nancy texted me just now, saying that we're so thoughtful to get smth for Aunty Eve and Raymond is a nice guy. I SUPER LOL LOL LOL TO MAX! HAHAHA :D opps* ok I'm actually super happy and proud of boy for making a good impression. My naggings and everything worked! yay hard work paid off. hehe. boy, one fine day we must go tamp one's dessert stall to try Aunty Eve's recipe for the pomelo sago! oh, btw the stall was opened by her niece under Select is one of the company which is owned by Aunty Eve's family. It has numerous eatery and catering under Select.

Citibank's having promo for SIA to Aussie and Auckland! tempting to max. Should I fly this Aug? hahahahahaaha :D can't wait for our next trip to Aunty Eve's place in Sydney again! it would be even better now cos she had bought a car! YAY :D

Bed time soon, super tired! I'm so drained lah! tata world.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SPY! LOADS & LOADS OF LOVE FROM YJR!

2010-07-11T23:08:00.004+08:00

My first week of TA had ended, observation is approaching and I'm feeling jitty abt it :s
I had just emailed my Prof after completing my reflection at 2am last night. Waiting for her feedbacks! hmm... LP and reflection this week.. jia you!

Sat & Sun with boy:

We had lunch & koi at home before heading to Marina sq to have Sakae Sushi and play my fav UFO catch catch. it was not a fruitful day. humpfs. Boy had to go training later, and I headed home to do work. We had Ya Kun breakfast on Sunday before watch Despicable Me! OMG! SUPER HILARIOUS AND CUTE LAH! TOTALLY ARROW3 ARROW3! Went for lunch at PS's Lao Beijing and also shopped for Aunty Eve's gift! We're having a gathering this coming Tuesday before she returns to Sydney. Boy paid for the whole set of Aussino bedsheets for her! wow! We ended our day with Koi before he sent me home (: weekends are always never enough. 3 weeks more and he'll end his freedom :(((

* * * *

Spy's 22nd Birthday at Chinatown Point & Liang Court : YJR never fails to bring me so much laughter in my life and true friendship we share is totally amazing! I love our endless topics and gossips plus I always gets a pair of earrings when I meet them. hehs! Goodwood Park's Durian cake yummy yum yum slurps*HAPPY BIRTHDAY SPY! HOPE U HAVE ALL THE WISHES COME TRUE ON YOUR 22ND! LOVE YOU :D

cos Aud asked me to see what she had posted on her fb, I decided to do smth like her. tada! what I bring on my first day of school :D

Timbre Substn with boy and The Good Fellas!

Timbre Substn with SS friends! :D
The guys not included :p

Zouk & Phuture with my girls plus Aq's bf and his friends.

thats about all! Aussie album is gonna take some time here and in FB! gonna wake up early for school tmr again, till then & night world!

I LOVE YOU

2010-07-11T01:21:00.002+08:00

I AM F U C K STRESSED.

2010-07-08T23:53:00.000+08:00

I feel a little feverish. no good no good.

2010-07-07T22:12:00.007+08:00

i'm staring into my comp and I was supposed to start typing on my reflection.. but i'm totally restless. motivation can u pls come to mummy?

My boy decided to cheer me up this way:

sannndy says:
one only ar?
[c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] says:
rare de
equal to 9999 leh
sannndy says:
is it???
[c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] says:
yes
sannndy says:
prove
[c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] says:
no prove de
because this is only see in com btw our conversation
other ppl wan also dun have
sannndy says:
ohhh
[c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] says:
yup
sannndy says:
ok lor
[c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] says:
smile la
dun sian ok
where is my sunshine gal??

sannndy says:

[c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] says:

sannndy says:

c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] says:
what niao?
sannndy says:
stingy la
[c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] says:
den what to do with bird?
sannndy says:
niao lor
[c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] says:
lol
okto show the documentry very cute
about little monkey de
sannndy says:
sian la
monkey more impt den me
[c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] says:
of cos is you la
my love
[c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] writes:

Hello excuse me Sandy Tan, can you stop binging?

2010-07-05T22:07:00.008+08:00

boy had been feeding me like non stop hits everyday and i super hate it can! fat fat fat! rahhh.

We had an inpromptu date to the Toy Museum and caught Ip Man: The Legend

Before Zouk.

Sukiya with boy.

My super chio havaianas, hehe.

Baby and Tabby at grandma place

Dim Sum at Cathay

* * * *

Today was first day of TA. time zoomed off madly fast before I could get settled. School's expectations is really high. I'm afraid of not meeting up to their standards. btw, my school was ranked top 20 out of all schs. All staffs are helpful and nice, but i really miss my kids back at oeps! :( my tanaka kazushige :(((

I was filling in my CV last night and I was caught at the last qn. I could have given beautiful and idealistic answers 2 years ago, but now... I ponder.. Where had all the passion go to? who extinguished it?

First day and I'm terribly hopeless. felt like my first day back in oeps. I hope I could overcome like what I had did previously... sighs... tired.

Remind yourself to be faithful to your bf.

2010-07-05T02:06:00.003+08:00

Its one of the rare Sundays that I get to sleep in! Boy came up with a whole list of places to go today, but I decided to stay at home and join the sleep marathon. I woke up at 1230 and went back to sleep again at 430, waking up at 7pm to watch tv prog and that explains why I am here at 2am!

I had a fantastic week with boy! We had his grandma's breakfast immediately the next day when we came back! yummy! thanks mummy kong for bringing home the food for us! KOI IS LOVE! Caught Toy Story 3 and had dinner at his ah ma place (: boy accompanied me to the doc on wed and we head down to MS to shop for my corporate wear and we went UFO catch catch again before we had sukiya for dinner! yay yay! :D Thurs was out to airport checking out the slide (which was so chey~~~) and shopped around, caught the movie Knight & Day before heading home. We went Liang Court for Sazeriya on sat! had the yummy gelato ice cream from a new ice cream parlour alongside central! We went for our yummlicious pudding before doing grocery shopping at Meidi-ya. eat shop eat shop, boy went for his colleague's baby 1 mth, while i went home to pack my things. We met again for Timbre chillout session! YAY! We both got super huge crave for buffalo wings can! :D It was The Good Fellas night again! its my 2nd Timbre session this week. cool :D boy says we should try and do this every week! heehee :p

Time to sleep, meeting boy for breakfast tmr! tata world :)

You will never be someone that I hated, if we never crossed each other's path before.

2010-07-03T01:15:00.002+08:00

I wanna be better & I definitely know I can be better;

2010-07-03T01:10:00.000+08:00

I'd made my choice;

2010-07-02T01:52:00.002+08:00

Timbre substation with ss clique for the last time before practicum starts. There was another grp of schoolmates seated at the next table too. It was really a great night catching up with one another plus I felt all the tension, stress and momentum crawling inside me now. I guess I have lots to prepare before school starts! Sianzxzxz.

Tara really looked so pretty and adorable from her makeover (:

Boy and I went dating at T3 today and caught Knight&Day at TM. Another rare weekday spent tgt. How I wished we have so many of these weekdays to spare. Hmm alrighty, gonna sleep soon. Still having a lil jet lack.

Phuture's crowd is madness

2010-07-01T03:42:00.003+08:00

Just back from zouk. Crowd was extremely bad that they blocked pple from entering Phuture. Tsssk.

We're initially queuing up at dbl o but the queue wasn't moving, so we drove to zouk. Didn't expect it to be worst den butter n dbl o...! Numerous guys coming up to ask if we wanna join them to dance :s I had to act as if I didn't see or hear them can, or I wld just tell them it's okay( we're so comfortable in our own circle lah!) seriously I nvr encountered anyth worst den this. We're totally surrounded closely with many guys just around us and they were so close! We tried to get out of it, but yet another circle formed again can. We gt so tired and left. The crowd control was so bad tonight! I'm exactly aware of guys in clubs cos it happened numerous times, but tonight was so different! Can u imagine like about 10 plus guys surrounding 3 girls?plus they are all fr different groups. Tsk. And my other 'dear' friends were like gone again :/ even while waiting for them outside the toilet, we felt like we're animals cage up in the zoo for their viewing can. Random guys wld just stare/look at you or come up to u and say things like 'hey pretty...' tsssk!

I'm just like a few months away from club scene, so had all things changed?

TOY STORY 3 FOR 5/5 POPCORNS!

2010-06-30T00:14:00.003+08:00

I'm not at all sick&tired of spending consecutive 10 days with my boy, and tmr we're going out again! yay yay! gonna spend more time with him before practicum starts and him serving the nation for the next 2 years starting this Aug2. Its time that we work towards our future and goals we wanna achieve.

Ever since I embarked on my Aussie trip, I had been really enthusiastically getting people to talk about the concerns of studying/staying abroad. These Aussie Uni(s) had offered a place for me and replied for my deferment, and mum had also been quite spontaneous about it. I'm not sure was it coz age has caught up with me, I'm not as adventurous as before. There were so many times I took many steps back coz I'm afraid what I'll be facing next. I'm not trying to say that doing a degree in SG is not good, but I so wanna go abroad to have a feel of their education system. This time round in Sydney, I don't even wanna come home. The world is so big, and I have yet to explore what I needed to.

This trip taught me, to slow down and appreciate good things in my life. every part of the surrounding is beautiful, and all we need to do is take slower foot steps and have a close look. Pictures are for memories keepsake, but the impression you saw might be an eternal memory in ur life, something more expressive and impactful than a hardcopy.

My uncle once told me that this is not the time to think about doing something else, but try to improve on what you are practicing currently and how to give your best in it. (relating to my situation) sounds extremely true, but it never crossed my mind at all.

thou' I've not found whats ahead of me, but i'm not gonna give up searching. i'm definitely not contented settling down in this comfort zone.

ARRIVAL VIA DOWN UNDER!

2010-06-29T00:42:00.002+08:00

HOME SWEET HOME YO! MISSING SYDNEY VERY X100000.... MUCH!

CAN'T WAIT TO GO BACK SOON!

sianzxzxzxz practicum starts next week! *sulks a million times*

Bye Sunny SG, We arrow3 Winter.

2010-06-19T01:58:00.003+08:00

WE ARE HEADING DOWN UNDER FOR A WHOPPIE AWESOME 10 DAYS!

TILL THEN! CYA'LL :D

♥ TIFFANY & CO. ♥

2010-06-18T01:40:00.003+08:00

I shopped like madness today just for a trench coat! It was a sudden urge last night that I should get it! lol. thanks wen for ur help! love.

so it all started from Ion Orchard to 313 to Scotts Shaw House to Ion again! to Wisma to Taka back to 313 when I finally got it! We went back to Taka for our yummilicious dinner at Tampopo! Thank you darling for going to and fro orchard just to find my desired coat! yay yay yay! :D

My Darling is the super sweetest pie! ♥♥♥
We were at TCO looking for my Return to Tiffany necklace, my desired design actually exceeded his budget, so i thought of just getting the pendant will do, we'll make it with other matching necklace. But boy suddenly said we should buy the whole set! I was so surprised can! He said that the necklace has the tco logo on it, so we should get it. We will go back to do engraving of my name after we come back from Aussie! yay yay yay :D

True, Pure & Eternity love ♥

We are bringing Tabby home tomorrow! YAY YAY YAY :D I can't wait to see this little cutie!
I have not packed my bag! tell me how how how?!?! I think i'm too complacent cos everytime I'll do it the night before I leave, thou and my packing skills is *thumbs up* ! I'm pretty fast at it!hehe. anyway mommy is the best, sponsored my trip again! lovelove!

I need to sleep soon! can't wait! can't wait!

THIS IS AN EXTREMELY TORTUROUS ORDEAL.

2010-06-17T01:42:00.000+08:00

My dream is to explore every themeparks in the world!

2010-06-16T02:25:00.005+08:00

USS is so overrated. it looked so much duplicated to the rides that I had tried in Universal Studios Los Angeles and Movie World in Gold Coast.

I really wanna go Disneyworld one day. I'm inspired by my LA Disneyland trip! if we're going Europe this year end, we might visit Paris's Disneyland rated poorest of all 5 disneylands/world. I believed it can never beat HK's one, which I completed the whole themepark in less than a day!

Hmm so where shall we spend this year's xmas? Japan again? I wanna go Europe!

19months and counting....

2010-06-16T01:11:00.006+08:00

Yesterday was high tea @ Halia with my 2 pretty girlfriends! we had fun taking zillions of pictures~! they are always so awesome coming up with fantastic places! i wished i could have more time for them thou. The ambience made me so sleepy and I really could close my eyes anytime to take a nap. hoho. the pastries are yummy too! love.

Gerri's prop hat! hehe :p

We're about to leave the place!
Last group shot! we're happy threesome! weee ~!

I went over to spotlight to buy more stuffs for the gown.. extremely excited about it. baby tried it and it really looked so pretty! oh! Tabby is joining our Tan family this weekend! YAY! :D our inspection passed, and this cutie little salt&pepper Miniature schnauzer is joining our family! Baby you have a new bff gf now! are u excited?!?!

I bought some loots from 313's uniqlo and f21 plus i got my eyebrows fixed. I used to trim it like about 2-3 weeks everytime cos I simply gt too much time to spare with jt, so we would always go for threading. hehe. darling got his haircut and we had handburger for dinner :p

Darling had been the sweetest pie recently, his text msges really melts my heart. awww. I can never get any angrier at him. tsktsk. like what you said, we should enjoy our new fresh start cos the past is dead. I like it whenever you will tell me lots of things and I'll always get to see ur 'himbostic' laughters. aha! new word for him too! LOL :DDD

I really need to go pack my baggage.....! 3 more days! pressing for time, oh no! 10 days in Aussie... wooohooo~! I hope my menses don't spoil my trip! win already can, someone got me to pack it for him over the weekend and now he tell me no space to put his underwear, so i told him to wear everything at one go. LOL! i'm charging 5aud for a day's rental for hp charger. LOL! but I wanna increase price now.. lol.

boy: "your auntie and uncle they all speak english?"

me: "yup.. all of them including my cousins.."

boy: "then i must teach them singlish..how to speak singapore singlish!" blah blah blah..

me: "don't throw my face can zzz -.-"

boy: "no they should know!"

me: "I dare you, if you speak to them exactly what you had said to me, I'll sponsor ur skiing plus i'll even hire a personal coach for u!"

boy: "................really ma they should know......"

making my love ones happy is LOVE!

2010-06-14T00:46:00.008+08:00

Just finished a great 500bucks 10 course dinner at MS's Putien celebrating Papa's day! Boy was the boss tonight. hoho. Yummy yumyumyum! me love yammmm! Boy brought me for UFO catch catch as promised after dinner! I'm addicted to it :/ I love HelloKitty! (bb i wanna buy the original hk casing can???)

I brought yt and yz out for Marche and Build A Bear! and I bought mummy a super pretty gold ring for her birthday hehe.

These few days was well spent with boy bumming around and having koi almost everyday! *one lump of spare tyre again!* We went to the IT fair and bumped into Alvin Quek and TYY. lol. managed to get our thumbdrive and a router for my uncle. We had Crystal Jade dim sum for breakfast and to-go for uncle,auntie and ah ma at the store :p

I promise not to mention the 'L' word in front of you again k? I tryyy! lol. hmm i really sympathise with her b/g, so I'll not anyhow talk talk say say and kepo kepo ok? Teeheehee. Boy said that we should not allow any outside things to interfere our r/s or even create problems for us, and now the world its only you and me. awwwwww~

Anyway he created a new word to describe me: BIMBOSTIC. thanks hor! I very bimbo meh? why everyone says so??? and boy is extremely sickening that he likes to make me throw tantrums. He said that he love to see how bimbo I am. raahhhrahhhh! angry de lor. tsk.

overdue visuals! :

After Bantian's bday dinner. at some pool place. Weinan's SLR damn fun can. I had fun shooting everyone at the pool place since I don't know how to play at all.

Ma Maison with YJR spells L . O . V . E!

OHQ got me a pair of super chio heart bling bling earrings for me from TW! Thanks lah bie!

YJR IS LOVE.

Bie is love too. hehe.

My favourite Berrylite!

Berrylite ice cream with nata de coco and Honey stars!

WE ARE BACK TO 17! NEOPRINTS! my gawd! but we had fun fun fun!

Weekday meet up with darling to the Arts Museum after his work! big rabbit restaurant is reserved for event that day and we didnt have it :(

Hommies meetup for eugene's farewell. but he didnt turn up cos he wasn't feeling well.

Agnes B passport holder. I bought this for his farewell and mum wanted to get me one too! yippie yay!

Ah chew for dessert later!

Random dim sum date with jt and yy. dinner was with polymates!

found this while packing my oeps sch stuffs! made by darling in 2009!

Happy Lemon! I got so addicted in Shanghai!

baby's gown in progess......

My first KFC breakfast!

new 32 inch tv in my room. yes my tables all super messy cos my bro just dumped my things around to fix the tv! tsktsk!

I am excited about this week! so much things to look forward to! i'm going for high tea at Halia with G&M tomorrow! weeee~! timbre this week! awesome!

We are going IT FAIR! YAY! :D

2010-06-12T01:54:00.003+08:00

We had an 'amazing race' today! My feet is aching like maddddd :s

boy and I got up super early for kfc breakfast (mentioned zillion of times) before heading to NSC. and we went to collect his quarter pound tshirt at king albert's park and went town to have Ayam Penyet for lunch before buying his army phone and collected his Prada wallet. I have a few wallets in mind again. hehe. boy was like saying everytime i buy a wallet, i'll regret the next day and will give plentiful of excuses to get another new wallet. lol.

Went back to sleep before heading to MS's putian to book for this weekend father's day dinner. We wanted to have sukiya but the queue was freaking long! booohooooo. And I am a UFO catch catch pro! better den boy! lol! Slacked at starbucks before heading home. we're meeting tmr for dim sum again followed by IT fair. yippieeee! :D

I'm out of sg in a week's time! I CAN'T WAITTTTTTTTTTT!
Shopping BEGINS NOW!