Come back ok?

Days are so hard to pass these days when I am alone in a foreign place. I wished you're by my side. Alone here don't make me feel any better. I just want you to be part of me for everything I do.

Now I know what I do really want. My dream that I used to think of wasn't exactly that perfect and suddenly just don't want to go ahead with it anymore.



"you know like you studied very hard for the exam and you thought you could get at least an A,but you failed it. ya its like my r/s where i put in so much effort and there was nothing at the end of it."




I just wanna start everything from zero. I no longer wanna think about what had happened in the past already. Lets work things out can? please?

checked in and waiting for my 320pm flight.

i'm at T1 gate C20 waiting to board my flight. I don't wish to come home any time soon. I'm gonna take this trip to recover and pick myself up again. Its been really bad. Hope being alone and spending some personal time will make me feel better when i finally choose to return back here.

Its my impromptu escapade. To somewhere with great air, good scenic and quality personal time. Sometimes i just felt i got guts of a lion.i clicked this flight last friday, without thinking, without checking all the timings and best thing was i didnt figure out my passport will be expiring soon. I'm crazzy.

Bye sg. I'm gonna miss you, boy. Really.

I will be 3827 miles apart from you in a few hours time. I don't wish to come back.

FT card reading (part x):

FT: you got bf?
Me: don't know yes/no.
FT: can see from the cards is on and off.
FT: 有缘still, but if want to be together must work things out.
FT: He is now thinking of only work and money, no love. both of you have your own things to do also.
Me: Wont be together again right?
FT: this all depends on you and him, how you both want to work things out.







I bought a one way ticket to the other side of the rainbow to find back all my smiles.

zoo trip with YJR rawks my sockies LOL!

I really wanna upload my aussie trip! I'm collaging Day4's Mt Buller can! But I know I cant finish tonight with so much stuffs left undone on the floor.


Give me some time ok people! zoo first!

I'm happy with YJR in my life all these while (: so contented with them around. Lets hope nth will bring us apart and our kinship will stay long long long! 60 years, 70 years.... as long as we live! hehe. imagine 10 years down the road, when all of us have kids.. hahaha... super epic lor this scene! :D

Anyway I am very happy that my GT is attached okay!!! :D congratulations! 3 years later can plan for marriage! hahahaha :D

The awesome fun we had :D

YJR zoo trip & dinner with my mummy @ T3 Crystal Jade. I feel so blessed with them around (: We talk crap, laugh crap and sabo crap. lol! we love jump shot madness! :D I think we jumped more than 10 times can! LOL LOL LOL!

Time flies! we already knew each other for about 5-9 years! THAT IS SO COOOOL :D

More outings and celebrations to come! YAY YAY YAY :D I AM VERY EXCITED TO THE MAXXXX! really missed out too much of them already.

Will upload more when I am free. I have tons of things to do! hmm and i do feel the excitement building up!

奇怪的是，我们两个人总是默默地离开，从来不清清楚楚的说出“分手”这两个字。为什么？是怕伤害对方吗？

I thought I was ok?

There was a sudden flashback of the scene at the hospital. It was so clear in my mind. Every single part of it. Tears started to whelm up. I felt extremely scared. For that moment I just wanted to be by your side.

All the guilt inside me that I was so useless at that point of time, I couldn't do anything, and you over the phone saying everything was too late while I was waiting for them at the taxi stand.


I really thought I was important, and you needed me. I really thought so.


Despite everything and all, I really don't wanna recall the past, bear any grudges, blaming whoever or talk about anything anymore. I wished everything could start from zero again. I really wished to. nothin' much to say anymore.


If you are reading this, I wanna tell you I'll still be standing by the side and waiting for you, no matter how long & bad things are gonna be;

Gerri's "18th" Birthday Celebration @ Conrad Hotel on 8/8/2010

MY ESCAPADE IN A CLICK!

plus a Farragamo wrislet hp chain & new birkies. arrow3

My objective;

I had a great time at lunch with my paternal family. Darrell's dad treat and I told Aunty Nancy must be the money he won from Crowns. haha. :D I cannot explain how nice both Aunty Nancy and Uncle were. She kept reminding 'us' to meet up for a meal soon.

Everyone was happy and laughing (esp grandma) at my eldest uncle's jokes. Grandma had amnesia and sometimes she couldn't recognise us. But everyone would always make a joyful occasion for her. Uncle kept reminding the objective I want to achieve, and correcting me time and again when I told him mine.


alot of things, there is no way and no point for reconciliation. I won't be so corny to say its all fated. But alot of times is not about can or cannot do it, but more of want or don't want to do it. I need to chase back what I had lost all these while. Its all enough (:

Baby click!

Can't wait for all these to be over;

I'm anticipating my rainbow after this rain. & hopefully everything comes back intact (:
My rainbow would be the most beautiful rainbow amongst all! I can see it forming part by part every single day (: yayness!

Have faith, lets walk this through hand in hand. I know everything will be ok, just a little more sparks (: I'm creating! :D

I wished I had like 9857434 hours a day :(

This weekend was really short! despite like meeting my bb for the consecutive 4 days but I felt we didnt do anything much :( I understand we have to take care of ah ma and uncle and everyone, so we can't go out as often like how we used to last time. When everyone is out, we have to stay at home and look after ah ma. We can't let her be alone. hmm. me understand (:

& our plans had to be called off because of financial constraints. Bb's getting all his 'dreams come true' soon, so we cannot anyhow spend money, moreover he is not working anymore, so we cannot put stress on his pocket! *must remind myself!*

Everyone is so happy about my changed r/s status! haha I know I havent been like changing my status for the longest time, and when I did it yesterday, many people came to 'like' my status at FB! so cute lah everyone! ok I mean for those who didn't know I was tgt with bb. thanks everyone for being so happy for me that I'm off the shelf now, blissfully attached. LOL LOL LOL! :D


some pics taken last week!:

With other TAs at Hei Sushi! :D


They call this the Channel 5 table, lol!


My bff and best supporter in PRPS :D love ya Charissa Chern! definitely gonna miss our canteen breaks and library gossip corner! awww~



All of us in RED cos its National Day Celebration! :D

She is so beautiful! our lead singer for Sing Singapore team Triple Talent :)

After so many days of not seeing my hunny darling! I missed him sooooo much can! super love sick. hahahaha :D I had been taking cab these few days just to chiong to see him. but I think cab and mrt arrives at about same time but totally different cost! tsktsk. I was totally so happy when I finally got to see him and feel him beside me again! yay yay :D

My hunny boy got deferred again, so I called this pic his 'first book out' LOL! bb brought me for yummilicious korean food! no need go fep already! Iluma's also not bad! hehe.

Saturday was out with hunny! we wore the same tee shirt we bought in Sydney. hehe. We got the same size but mine became a skirt, and baby insisted that I should wear legging inside. tsk so hot! And with our PR watches *tititititi* haahahaha...! noticed we wore our watches on our right hand? for me was cos I'm a left hander, but its his habit x)

We went MOF for dinner before going to Timbre! The Good Fellas again! We are super big fan of them! hehe. Jt say its really good to have such a hobby btwn a couple. I think like so fun! haha :D We can enjoy food and great music! super love love to max can :p

Bb & I had some HTHT that night. I understand where is your stand, and I really liked to hear them before everything just explodes like a volcano. I cannot let history repeat itself. We must be always there to ask, listen, explain and to understand. its impossible to keep quiet everytime.

Just like today when we were heading for our Nan Xiang XLB, we talked about our trip, but I insisted that we should go ahead, forgetting my bb's pocket and all.. hmm, sorry bb my bad. It already very difficult and stressful for him to handle all the stuffs thats going on and I would wanna overcome everything together with him. So I cannot be an additional burden :(

Time for bed soon, I have an urge to go for a jog when darling told me he's going to the gym tmr. haha. lets see what time I'll crawl up from bed. hehe. tata world, goodnight hunny!

Though I know it's never easy-Yellow Ribbon Project;

I wanna be the person to overcome it together with you, and not the burden that you have to carry with you. It's not gonna be easy but I'm embracing this storm bravely. I know it'll be better in time. I have to learn how to control my temper and stop venting it on you.

It's really good to be able to see you for the past 2 days having good Korean food and Timbre substn tgt. I wished time could just stop, where we were once happy and enjoying ourselves. Sad thing is nothing could stay stagnant. Everything happens and changes. I have to build my courage to overcome all the difficulties I'm gonna face. I'll never complain that I'm tired or even wanna give up. Never.

I hope better days will come by.. Just for you and me.

I WANNA GO SHOPPING LEHHHH!!!!

FINAL WEEK OF TA! YAY :D

I wouldn't wanna mention what had happened last week. All I could say was I witnessed every single scene, feeling really helpless. sighs.

5 weeks zoomed off really fast! All my observations ended! yippie! I only had problems with my NSC. As I predicted, my classroom management was marked down again! wah sianzxzxz to max! most pointers came from my adhd boy. so unfair! like out of so many people only my class has. boohoo. even my CT commented that all these NSC are too idealistic already lah! plus my class was a mixed ability class, how can you compare with the high ability classes. zzzz. NEVERMIND! over already. Anyway my CT really gave good appraisal for my teaching obs! super happy! :D she knew her class well, and knew that she should not marked so harshly on me. hehe.

And for today, my adhd boy was talking non-stop was I was teaching comparing fractions. So I gave him my marker to come up tot teach. He really tried his best to teach the class, but no one understands. but everyone enjoyed the fun thou. haha. I took over in less than a minute, telling them its not easy to teach at all. haha kids.

my new love: mummy insisted she buy for me! HAHAHA :D chio to the max yay yay!

Boy's army deferred! I'm happy that I can now spend my one month vacation with him! :D bb you better keep some time for me ok! love you.