HERE I COMEEEEE! :D

Flying off to Europe in a few hours time! Yet another white xmas!Yippie!

I am glad that my flight wasn't cancelled! yet not so glad cos I can't be in SG to spend me&markie's first xmas together :(

Cya'll :D I'll be home right before the countdown for 2011!

markie told me: "You mum takes care of you from 0 years old to 22 years old and I will take care of you from 22 years old to forever (:" awwwwww so sweet :p

Listening to the songs you recorded for me! ♥♥♥

♥♥♥Dedicated to Markie♥♥♥

I was told to write a post that could last for 10 days!

I spent the whole weekend with dearie! He was out with me shopping and feasting! hehe. fatness! We shopped everywhere, bought lots of stuffs, and decided to go for XLB at Nanxiang! slurps :p Then he left for MJ at his friend's place till 5am in the morning before waking up at 9am for Capoeira! We met up for shopping again! & dinner was at Coca! wooohooo~! YUMMMMYYYY :D

Dearie decided to accompany me on a Monday cos I was leaving on tues for my trip and he couldn't see me for the next 10days! he super emo, and make me emo as well :(((

trinkets of us (anyway i grew so fat & put on so much weight!) my goodness! arghhh! :

yummy yogurt ice cream!!! 3 flavours of mochi(s),nata de coco!!!!!, aloe vera! watermelon and 1 lychee. hahaha :D

WAH LAU EH! MY EYE BAGGGSSS!!! HORRENDOUS SIAA!!!

KTV on my jiemei's birthday! :D

Actually Markie's eyes is super small ok, not much white space left. HAHAHA STILL WANNA ACT BIG EYES! NNNNPP!

yum yum yum my xlb! slurps!

I became a terrible camwhore after dearie got his iphone4! hahahaha :D

My Markie is so amazing. I seriously don't know why. Eventhough I only know him for like 1 month & 1 week, yet it seemed like 2 years already! we talk anything under the sun, anywhere and everywhere! (Markie just speaks anyth without any considerations of location!tsk!) hahaha :D

He's like my guardian angel, cos he protects me very well and taught me how not to be taken advantage of. He's always there, like a solutions hotline. Everything is solved after a call (:

We talk things. Sometimes too much, and we will have very bad disputes. We argued about money cos I'm terrible at managing my finance. I am not realistic sometimes, and Markie will teach me how to think practically.

Despite this, Markie is still like my best friend. We laugh & gossip about our past. We would share how was our day and he is forever so attentive about what was I talking and would give me good suggestions when I need advices. Markie is no shy boy in front of me. We show no formality and are so comfortable with each other. He just behaves like how he is with his friends.

♥I love you, because everyday you will tell me how much you love me & miss me.♥ I love you, because you respect my thoughts and feelings. ♥ I love you, because you are so serious about me and will not try to toy my feelings. ♥I love you, because you will prioritise me before anyone.♥ I love you, because you are truthful about your thoughts and never try to be pretentious.♥ I love you, because you will try your best to protect me.♥ I love you, because you will consider my feelings before doing anything.♥ I love you, because you wanna share your future with me. ♥I love you, because you like and appreciate of who I am. ♥I love you, because of the many reasons why I love you.

Baby, please don't be sad & take care of yourself when I'm not around ok? Meanwhile pls rest well and had a wonderful xmas celebration over at JL's place! I wished I could join you guys! awww :( join the guys for MJ/clubbing after that too ok?! &&& I hope to see the new room when I am back! hehe :D PAINT TCO TURQUOISE! I'm gonna miss you badly :(

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!!!!!!!!! wah! I wan him as my bf! hahahaha :D

I only can say 岁月不留人! lol :p (markie is now rolling his eyes & say why I like that!)

aiseh aiseh, TP waterpolo VC & lifeguard lehhhhh!!!!! LOL! but now the 6 pacs now asking for abit of merger lah. hahaha :D

I better start going for a run with baby soon! we need to keep in shape and cannot be complacent. later all clothes cannot wear!

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Thank you baby for the 4 songs that you had sang for me. I love it. Please me guai when I'm not around & remember to miss me all day long ok! muacks ♥♥♥♥

What's wrong with me?

I seriously need reflect on my attitude & tantrums. My poor bf is constantly riding on this emotional roller coaster ride. I feel so guilty about it that I told him I wanted to give up on this r/s. I am so bad!!!!! argh.

His love for me always exceeds the love I have for him, no matter how much I love him :((( I must really treat him better & stop being a such a kid. kick those bad habits away!

remind myself: I NEED TO TREASURE MY DEAREST BF x INFINITY TIMES.

p/s: boyfriend I love you. Thank you for being so understanding. & please try not to ask so much 'why'. gamsia. hahahahahaha :D

回忆很可怕；

我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘

曾为他相信明天就是未来

情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望

我的心深深伤过却不会忘

如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢?

伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗?

如果还有遗憾是分手那天

我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来

若那一刻重来 我不哭

让他知道我可以 很好

this song is running in my mind;

飞机已离开机场

你选择了前往你的方向

不再迷惘

忘了我们爱的过往

忘了我给你的伤

学会坚强

从前的我不懂你牺牲多大

为我失去朋友不讲

还放弃了所有梦想

觉得没怎样

不会将心比心去想

让你慢慢慢慢失去了希望

能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你

我会仔细的聆听

你对我说的一言一语

我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心

对你好好的去珍惜

请你相信我的心还是爱你

我想再重来一次

回到过去弥补你的伤

没那种事

怎么做才能够停止

后悔竟伤你如此

不再放肆

为何总到失去才懂的难过

当你在我身边的时候

总是为我默默守候

都是为我的错

错过这难得的拥有

就让你爱我的心慢慢溜走

能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你

我会仔细的聆听

你对我说的一言一语

我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心

对你好好的去珍惜

请你相信我的心还是爱你

Happy 1st ♥

Thank you baby! ♥♥♥♥♥

my new ipod nano for running! hahahahahaha :D

&&& the new BB bold 2! :D baby insisted that he buy this so his presence can always be by my side! (Phone is smth i can't live w/o) he got himself an iphone 4 too! bcos he dropped his 3gs into the toilet bowl! hahahahahahahahahhaa :D

I made him a calendar filled with love!

♥♥♥ hope you like it baby!

Today 13dec marked the first month we got tgt, yet it seemed like we had been tgt for many many years! baby, I had said what I wanna tell you in the letter, and to add on, nth is gonna change even these gifts don't come alright? don't be too hard on yourself (: loveyou!

i like life simple.

I seriously have tons of pics to share, but no time! I am flying off to Europe in 8 days time! wheeeee :D (bf no sad ok, we wadsapp wadsapp! )

cut short, Me & Gerri went on a high tea at Regent Hotel on a Monday! Taitai wannabe ok! :p

Next up, deb's wedding last friday at Orchard Parade Hotel! and we went Timbre and rochor tau huay after that :D

Sat was spent with bf & family! we went to USS to catch the fireworks and Markie's bro treated us to Hardrock cafe for dinner! Markie drove me out for supper with the rest of his friends. Mutarbak is love! yum yum yum :D

Baby, hope you like my present! &&&&& you know Markie always sang me songs through the phone or webcam, but last night he literally sang LIVE to me. I felt so awkward can! awwww seriously! haahhaaha I feel so shy! :D

Look at Angel, so adorable! thats her favourite toy! she is a super drama queen okay tsktsk.

Baby got me a Ipod Nano today! yay yay yay :D & we had yummilicious ice cream and pudding plus baby's first time trying escargot! hahaha :D so funny! went town to watch Rapunzel! FINALLYYYYYY! chiong to Zara to get my coats! I can't resist my temptations and I gotten 2 for my Europe trip. tsktsk.

I am going to bed! I have so much to do yet little time! :(

MY BF WANTS A POST!

Because my BF wants a post about him! Now he's striking and not singing me a song after like so many days since 'my heart will go on'. no good!

Sooooo BF finally got me a pair of bedroom slippers! we were waiting for a pasar malam to come before we get one! :D we got an uglier Melody cos the prettier one was twice the price! so not worth!

Went back to bf place for dinner. yummy yum yum! :D Markie's mummy did not cook our fav chicken tonight, but still I enjoyed the dinner! Actually both of us had nothing much to do, so I read him some stories from the Aesop Fables and help him squeeze those black heads from his nose! poor boy, his was screaming and his tears were streaming out. LOL! hahaha :D Our night ended shortly.

Deb's wedding, Markie's parents' bday and our 1st monthsary! so looking forward! But I doubt there will be any plans since Markie is on serious budget. oh wells!

I hope Angel will leave my Melody slippers alone and not meddle with her!

My world is beautiful (:

Tis the season to be jolly, falalalalalalala~

I finally submitted my last few assignments of the semester today! YAY! now its time to countdown to my vacation to....... EUROPE! wooohoooooooooooooo! miu miu, lv, loewe, chanel, prada..... come come come! :D

Jiayou for your exams!

I ate like my tummy got worms for the past few days :((((

SOOOOOOO SAD TTM!!!! I NEED TO STOP EATINGGGGG!

Baby insists that he sings a new song for me every night (EXCEPT JAY CHOU) tssssssk! haha. BF you are wonderful! (:

my jukebox plays me a love song every night before bedtime! ♥ ♥ ♥

We dream talk after dinner, so here's how it goes:

(Discussing our financial status etc etc)

Baby: Dear I wanna suggest to you a proposal. A few years down the road we will need money for wedding, so maybe a few months later we can set up a joint account?

Me: Huh.. must save money? Okok lets calculate how many banquet tables we need. You see ar, now market rate is about 1.6k per table on a weekend. and I want it at Ritz Carlton. So estimated if one year raise a 100bucks, by the year 2018 will be 2.2 k for a table. WAH!

Baby: then how many tables?

Me: ok you see i got alot of friends..

baby: I also got alot, those Tom Dick Harry. All must invite meh?

Me: No lah, I'm saying you see arh, my YJR, den Anqi, Th, my nie friends, my colleagues, my shanghai friends, my poly friends... then my family... my bro had 25 tables!

Baby: oh ok like that reasonable. (count count count) so roughly you need about 20 tables.

Me: Ok then you baby, how many you need?

Baby: my family very small, plus friends about 10 tables.

Me: ok we need 30 tables. WAH! 30 x 2.2k is ...... (he took his phone and start calculating)

Baby: Ok 60k! just nice 6 years, every month each person must contribute 500.

Me: 500!!!!!!!! so much???

Baby: ok 300?

Me: Huh can don't want?

Baby: Can..... but instead of 6 years it will take 12 years only.

Me: orhh...

and it goes on and on.........

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Papa Lim so sweet! Tell me to come often! :D I love the food prepared by mama Lim too! yummy! Angel super drama queen can, and she is a huge jealous pot. boohoo. cannot see me and markie together. but she is still so adorable! I love to cover her eyes with her ears! hehe :D

thank you for always cheering me up!

Hey dearest, jiayou for your exams wed, fri & sat! :D

♥♥♥ Markie, You are AWESOME! ♥♥♥

Baby thanks for being so understanding (: i know you are the best! :p

let me hear your crap crap soon! save that 1k for your furniture ok? (:

2 weeks like 2 years!

boyfriend and I went on a weekend date to USS to catch the fireworks! yay yay :D

It was an awesome & funfilled day! after papa & mama Lim sent me home later, I complained to bf I was hungry and he picked me up for supper at simpang bedok for mutarbak! yummmyyyy! :D we had supper there last week too! tsktsk fat can, always simpang / 85!

having you is like heaven sent, always there for me and solving all the problems that I faced. thank you for being so caring and understanding towards me and you would never allow a chance to left things unsaid or undone.

I'm sorry for letting you having the thought that I didn't prioritise your feelings that night. I'm really thankful you are willing to listen to my thoughts and compromise with it (:

I love you, for being there to hold me tight and tell me how important I am to you. You are always so generous with your words, care and love.

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While walking home from Bedok 85 just now:

bf: really you know, its like we are together for 2 years

me: ya, so sad no more honeymoon, can i have honeydew?

bf: hahahahha (sarcastic) honeystars lah!

me: baby 形象形象！2 WEEKS ONLY!

& so my honeymoon period had officially ended -______-

Hero

How awesome to have a bf to play and sing you a song to chase away all your tired mugging nights? I'm glad I've found one! yay yay :D

thank you baby for being here for me again tonight (:

♥♥♥My jukebox ♥♥♥

My grandma's wake ended last Wed in the total of 9 days and 7 nights. The funeral was so grand and we had almost 3 sessions of chanting of prayers every single day. and It was at the crematorium that I really cried and hope she won't feel any pain.

"Ah ma, I thank you for bringing up papa. he would always go to you whenever he needed help. Without him, there will be no us. Please watch over papa when you are in heaven ok? Bless him with great health and happiness. xie xie ah ma"

It was during the funeral that I saw how much my father had aged. He was so old and fatigued. at the very last day of the funeral, he brought his comb to me and ask me to help him comb his hair. I was speechless. I combed it nicely for him, ensuring that every strand was in place. in the past, I would sit on your shoulder eating the malt candy and dripping onto your hair. Now the jet black hair had turned so grey. I wished we were back to childhood days when we where still happy. papa stop disappointing us. We want you back, really. I wanna see my papa & mama so in love again.

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Thank you Mark Lim, who had been with me all these while to bring sunshine into my life. I really appreciate what you had done for me. I enjoyed every single moment with you, chatting, laughing, gossiping and the quiet moments in the car where you will just sing along with any song.

For tonight, you played and sang me 'I do Cherish You' & '世界唯一的你' over the phone, to wish me goodnight and sweet dreams (: yay! you're learning all my fav songs too! I hope to see drums next time too! :p

I hope to spend more time together with you despite our super busy schedules. Jiayou for your upcoming exams! Work hard for the next 3 years in NUS! and your Capoeira and Water Polo!

Blissfully blissful (:

I am so thankful that my ex bf had dumped me. You'll definitely have good karma for it because I've found Someone who deserve me (:

Bye Ah Ma.

Ah Ma finally bade goodbye to all of us today. I did not cry. I was happy for her. She had finally ended all her sufferings and ready to find ah gong at another place to enjoy their times together.

She had been strong. She fought through her sickness. She was brave. She had lived to see 4 generations. And I know she will be watching us from up there (:

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today was the first time I saw how papa was so fragile and old. His hair was so grey. He looked tired. I thought of my maternal grandma at home too. so many of my close kin were always beside me but I always took it for granted that they will be by my side. I felt really guilty. still i wanna say, cherish the people around you.

I guess the times we see our paternal side will be lesser after this wake. I don't know why, but it seemed like its only our family who is always so busy to turn up for any of their activities. I am really jealous of the kinship all my cousins and relative share. Since young, mum had always forbade us to be too close with our paternal side. its becoming a habit now.

I'm so lethargic today. school had been so busy that I hardly get to sleep. I could just collapse anytime. I'm so so so tired. For now, I just hope I'll have 48 hours a day.

& know what, finally * had shown * true colors. i'm utterly disgusted. But i seriously can't be bothered :/ go ahead and mess up with your life. I can't stop you from it.

Arrival via Brissy with no plans.

Back dated for Brisbane trip in Aug 2010. I was alone abroad for an impromptu trip.

David Guetta and pretty starry lights with me on trip. Eugene and his friends drove to pick me up at the airport in the wee hours. And so happened that I knew them from tp too (: thanks tim & jialing! :D

Mitre Boys Home! aka OCS boys hut (all 4 of them plus the frequent visitor Tiong Han which added to 5) :D thanks yichao for your comfy bed. Felt so bad that you had to sleep in a sleeping bag in the living room :(

Uni of Queensland. Finally I'm here! crashed weisong's lecture and toured around UQ before heading home to have dinner whipped up by Stella! She's super awesome! Michelle, Kelly and xinhui too! wonderful hosts! :D and thanks pam & tessa for putting me at their Manors home. I moved out of the Mitre boys apt and crashed into the Manors. haha :D

I was out on friday touring Indroophilly alone before meeting Alvin for dinner in the city! we took a City Cat! so cool! its a ferry from St Lucia to the city! :D he introduced me to Mad Dong San. The korean food is fantastic and relatively cheap! we had bubble tea later :D I haven't seen him since yr 2006? haha, can't believe our next meet up was in Brissy! his housemate was my senior in Poly too! wah such coincidence! We chatted at his place which was a few apt away from Eugene's only.

We woke up early and headed to West End Market for grocery shopping! :D the Hungarian pizza is finger lickin' good can! that's Pam & my bff. Sadly they broke off after I left Brissy cos of personal reasons.

Bff and I went to Lone Pines Koala Sanctuary! Many many many many koalas and kangaroos!! aiyo so cute! haha :D had yummy popsicle too! we watched some animal shows and so happened that we were seated at the first row and the eagle had to gobble up a dead mice right in front of us! ewwwww~ We had subway and went home for dinner! Jialing was the cook that night! every night would be different people cooking. I super love yichao's mapo tofu. hahahaha :D Yichao & Tiong Han always drove us back to Manors despite like 5 mins walk home from Mitre st (:

I went Gold Coast alone on Sunday for shopping at Harbourtown! I didnt want to trouble bff after his marathon in which was at 6am that day. but i thought 10km was not a challenge to him. He used to be the fastest runner in OCS. I didn't knw until they told me. haha.

I spent super long time travelling can! I even went to surfers paradise just to get nougats as requested. it took me like 2.5hrs from my place to harbourtown and another hr from harbourtown to surfers! i was so happy that i wasn't lost. lol. cab would have cost a bomb man! I'm so familiar with surfers paradise and know exactly which shop to go to. haha. We shopped there thoroughly twice last year can. Movenpick ice cream is like one of the best ice cream i had before can! too bad sg doesn't have the parlour :(

I was on time for dinner, this time by James. He's so sweet to Tessa can. hahahaha! (internal joke)

I brought Pam to shop at Indroophilly! hahaha i'm super evil. she spent lots of money that day! I brought Weisong for dinner in the city too! to mds! I am so in love with the korean food can! and yes there were Nando's everywhere. apparently the one at Mitre street was one of the best. hehe.

I went to tour city alone while the rest goes to school! I went South Banks and then to shop everywhere. Oh it was my first time playing in a casino! i managed to win about 40plus aud from the 1cent jackpot machine. lol. bff treated me and pam for dinner that night! MDS again! I'm super in love with the bibimbap. they are authentic korean food plus along the street there were 2 restaurants! MDS1 and MDS 2!

This is Pam & Tessa's place where I was put up for a week. We would have movie marathons in the living room or the guys would come over to study.

It was a pleasure knowing them and hosting me so well!! Thanks everyone! There are plentiful of pics in Pam's DSLR but hadn't had a chance to upload yet. hah. I so wanna go back again! sooooooooon! :D