Enjoyment on a Tuesday night

was at Ion's The Mamarlade Pantry for an awesome dinner, followed by good martini at Grand Hyatt's Mezza Nine bar.
I'm enjoying fine dining!

2 kg and counting. Aneroxic pls!

Exams are over! yippie yay yay!! 2 weeks before study camp starts again :( Practicum school is out too, hope the agm can be arranged at the beginning of june!

I havent had a single good rest since the pre cny till now. i'm effing busy with my academic stuffs. damn torturing can. i felt like putting down a heavy stone right now. phews. I don't expect my average Bs this sem anymore. I crapped this shit up. so yeah.

I didn't do much retail therapy this month. I felt crap to shop, but I feast like i have an infinite tummy. marche, crytal jade, swensens, thai express (many times! got tom yum crave!), nydc, shokudo, carls junior, hk cafe supper(many many times) and the list continues....

Went jb with ss friends too. ate non stop. happy nails now! woohooo! kim gary, kenny rogers and baskin robbin's fondue! I'm having a major migraine when i miss my starbucks intake for a day. damn its addictive! I need to take this vacation to quit it!


some visuals to share:

Loi's 23rd bday at NanXiang XLB @ BJ. we ate soooo much! yummy!

right after our submission for ss Unit and Lesson Plan, we went to indulge in goody good good thai food! and Koi bbtea! all time fav to relieve stress! hurry pass the petition to open an outlet at NTU! Bishan has a new outlet too! went grocery shopping before going JT's house to cook! Her mum was impressed with how clean the kitchen was after we (ok, its THEY!) clean up. hoho.

After we reached her place, me and jon was first to knock out. jt made me very comfortable in her home! I wanna go stay again! jonny was out in the living rm slping on the sofa! wahahaaha. extremely tired cos I slpt 430am the night before and woke up at 830am to go sch to submit the assignment. The rest were busy at the kitchen, and when I woke up, I helped them took some cooking pictures. lol!

Dinner was fantastic! thanks to the good cooks! and the guys for washing up the dishes! hiaks, I'm the princess in the house! eat slp eat slp! lol! jt sets a rule for the next cooking session that everyone that comes must whip up something special and not instant. i'm in trouble. lol!

We rushed down to TH for 4hr ktv session! yay yay yay! I want more of these good times! :D

I'm pink ranger *didididididi* LOL!!

We all participated! heehee.

I need to rest my heart. its so tired.

night world!

How am I suppose to?

Why did u decided to try only when I almost wanted to give up? It's really tough for me to pick up the bits and pieces and trying to fix them back again. Baby please hold me tight, I'm really lost.

Bonus

Tara: jiejie sandy, do u like my duagu(big uncle)?
Me: do u want me to like your duagu?
Tara: yes...so do u like duagu?
Me: yes I like...
Tara: jiejie sandy u wanna come to our house again?
Tara: I can share my toys with u...
Me: ok I will come again..
Tara: so tomorrow next week I will remember u ok?

Too adorable and irresistably cute tara baby! She's only 4.
She showed me her colorings, her toys, told me her stories and gave me bigbig hugs, I was overwhelmed cos u told me she's so shy in front of strangers.


I wanna meet her again :)

2 hearts broken.

Baby, I'm really sorry.
Thank you for forgiving me.
I cherished you very much since the beginning.
I wont do it again.



Nick, thank you for being with me all these while.
I knew I hurt you alot, and I don't wanna continue to do it.
I'm extremely sorry.

How much more worst can I be?

I never felt more like a b*tch in my life for now. Can I just strangle myself please?

I hurt someone unknowingly. I didn't expect she would go to such an extent to hurt herself just for you. Its really painful for me to hear. I hope she's really okay.



Sorry, I have to withdraw myself again.

I feel like escaping to my own world

is it true that if you really wanna change, you would have done long time ago?

I can never feel you.

Virtual vs Reality.


its so unreal. how are we suppose to build up from here? I can't feel it at all. I wished you had put in a little more, effort. I have no say anymore... you have all the rights not to catch me when i fall.

Why am I allowing it time and again? Do something will you? PLEASE?

back to short hair. aha!

This weekend was fantastic. finally gotten some quality rest. not the best thou, but still i enjoyed myself with a pocket full full of *ka-ching!* :DDD credit card, debit card all smells sooo goood! hahaha :D




Finally submitted another assignment's appendix on friday 8am! I only reached home at 11pm on thursday after dinner with nic and wen at kimgary and bakerzin, plus going to my bro's place to take pictures for my appendix.


The pets in my bro's place. haha!

Anyway we've gotten a theme on A class visit to a pet shop. so we have to plan a lesson base on the theme given that day for LEA. we had to prepare appendices for class writing,group writing, and individual writings. PRIMARY ONE kids! I had to write like how they write. LOL. I did it at 3am! I slept at 4 and woke up at 530 to rush to submit the assignment. Followed by LP for ss, and headed town to shop plus rupini! yay yay!

this is the HA (high)work

MA (medium)

LA (low)

Vivi's 22nd birthday at Bedok 85! and Siglap's The society cafe. this was many many weeks ago in march! haha i back track! our first YJR on the 22nd mark! time flies! we're having a bbq for her 21st last yr!

Happy lah vv! angbao and htc handphone.! lol

Seriously only the Satio can make it. lol.

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Finally went town for a proper shopping on friday! the feeling was fantastic! night was out for dinner at HK cafe @ cineleisure and caught Clash of the Titans. meeting Jasmine was really awesome (: Came back and went Mac for supper. I really felt a lifebuoy on my tummy now :(

Saturday was an impromptu meet up. We went shopping for Baby's food (bro went for a holiday leaving baby at granny's place), brought me to Brotzeit for dinner and had bakerzin for dessert. very sinful! another lifebuoy :(

Thank you! came in time when I need it most. haha :D so matching! it was a surprise indeed (:

baby is off to msia for his uncle's funeral. his calls really bright up my day! :p Can't wait for him to be back :) yay yay yippie yay yay! :D

frankly, there's a test on tues, yet I am not studying. good job :/

go fly kite

I HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH MORE ANAL THIS PLACE CAN BE!

I'm not tired, but fatigued and lethargic. I can collapse anytime. this is nutcase. I am giving up. I need a breather.

Preparation

I have no idea what's gonna be the theme for DCE's lesson plan this thursday, and what are the resources and references that I have to prepare for. All i pray is my lappy won't crash during the 2.5 hrs test. rahhh I feel so up&down these days, highly pms symptom can.


Please only come back when you are READY, with your mind, heart and actions all having the same thoughts. I don't wanna hear or recall the past again. Happy days, I shall anticipate.


back to work, I am really DRAINEDDDDD :/





you called me last night, wanna hear the truth. I've got nothing to say.

2 down, a few more to go.

I had a 40% and 50% test today. I was complacent, I didn't study much. I suddenly lost interest in what I'm doing and not putting my heart to do it at all. I really feel like giving up any moment and discontinue whatever it is right now. I'm fatigue to max.

Please, I really do want my motivation to be back, I'm really scared to lose it. I have no fucking idea what else can I do, I'm really dragging everyday, and avoiding reality.

After this whole ordeal, I want a month of rest with ample sleep. My ankle hurts badly and my cough is non-stop. I don't like my sickness to occur every now and then. I really need a break.



I missed our webcam nights. Goodnight, another report to rush.


last song.

I'm caught in a dilemma

Chijmes Hog's Breath followed by cathedral church for his mini prayer.

Good friday breaking fast with your friends at Little India's Khomala's for vegetarian! (awesommmmmmmme!) and SB chillout at United Sq followed by T3'S Popeyes. Absolute quality time spent. I am becoming fatter because of you feeding me so much food constantly! *pouts*


2 tests tmr. And I didn't study throughout the whole weekend. Was out with bro to to settle his banquet and the bride's studio shoot and stuffs. Sunday was out for qing ming jie and major knock out. tsktsk. 12 hours of sleep a day is SHIOKNESS.



Me: Sure fail my DSE test again!
X: No you won't ok.
Me: Sure will again!
X: ok during the test, you write my name on your paper, I write your name on mine k?
Me:Huh don't want...
X: Why?
Me: I know I'll score better than you! LOL!
X: Yeah right....



I trying to get it off my mind. I thought sleeping was a good way to do it. I really don't know, I really don't. I can't move forward and moving backwards don't seem to me the bestest choice at all. I'm sure who's nice to me.

its gonna be a sleepless night again, I know.





It exceeded the time you'd given me. Leave me out of this crap shit will you?

I take back my words.

If you're indecisive, no one can help.

I'd already made mine, and I know what I'm gonna do.

Sometimes I wished the heart can meet the mind.

You think about it, if its worthwhile for you, then do something.

tonight will be the night that I'll fall for you, over again, don't make me change my mind.