You have to make a choice

Its back to square one again. sighs.
Am I doing enough, or too much?

1st 3 weeks - every week, slowly it becomes 2 times of two weeks, now it becomes 1 time of 3 weeks. if its the last, its gonna be 1 time of 3 days. so whats next? 1 month? 3 months? 1 year?


How to move on like that, you tell me.
I CANNOT BE YOUR BEST FRIEND. UNDERSTANDDDDDDD????



Because, all I wanna do is to go dreams chasin' with you.. so simple yet so difficult to be fulfilled..

In the month of November..

My pictures are all jumbled up.. I shall add captions for them okay (:

P6 Farewell party theme: Masquerade
My girls in Stand By Me (a math remedial twice a week conducted by math dept)

Some mask that Jon koped from the staff room for his Figaro House

One of my naughty boys, Ping Hwa. I miss Jae Hun! Ping Hwa said he was sleeping at home and didnt wanna come. tsk.

Some of my P6 girls

And over the weekend I went Batam with mom, her friends and my JS!

A&W!we don't get to see it in sg now.

Sharon trying to self-shot. Managed to only capture a few nice ones. LOL.

Look at my jialatt eyebags. tsktsk.

Out with Loi to Wasabi Tei for our good good jap food! yummy and cheap! and the service changed 360degrees! omg...HAHA.

Steamboat with hommies at MSQ. It was the best dindin I ever had with them eversince knowing them all these years! I am happy that our friendship is growing stronger :) Jy pls join us next time okay! :)

boooohooo they are not big eaters as they claimed :/

yay with my heart hoodie from GAP kids :p

At Raymond's place. He cooked 爱心lunch for me <3

I love the egg! (to replace my tamago) but the maggie was soso only cuz he added too much water. and in the end he cooked cup noodles. haha. well I really appreciate deep deep! thanks lor, I end up washing the dishes later. haha :D

This is the 3rd time he really cooked for me. the first time was fried rice with my yummy hot milo, and him pinching my cheek telling me how much I know how to enjoy life :p 2nd time was us out at ECP having picnic and he really took the effort to cook me curry and mash potato and stuffs. *sweet*

and this 3rd time, feeling was so weird cos.... we are no longer together. hmm. "anything that is cooked by you, is the bestest yummilious food that I'd ever tasted okay :)"

I swear this egg is nice! *thumbs up*

We decided to go DTE for Fish&co express at night. slurps my blackcurrant drink! :p

of cos not forgetting me pouting to get the cup of pudding milk tea >.<


I had a fun-filled day, sharing so much laughters with you. but i went home later with a heavy heart. sighs. If time could just stop when we were having fun, you pinching my nose and cheek, telling me i was so nonsense and silly. haha. I miss you.

Time for Transition

1. Infatuation goes away fast, like breeze.
   
2. I had enough of fun. time to settle down and think about whats next.
   
3. The more than a year of memories that you've given me were kept in my heart like piercing thorns.
   
   

I don't believe you

GESL

We are embarking on the community service project to Orange Valley Old Folks Home next week. I am really excited about it (: Besides offering our help, we are also going to give out goodie bags and perform some songs and dance for them. I had a great time rehearsing today with my peeps!


2012 with jies /Browhaus with Karmen/Starbucks with C.W.A.! th & friends at next table htht lolololol



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Sometimes its just weird how people measure money. I totally cannot understand. Wants overwhelmed Needs?

Heard a tale/encounter today, like how much guys can be soooooo overly b*stard. All I can say is, shouldn't judge a book by its cover and TIME will definitely tell the answer. I am glad that my friend has moved on though not in the perfect condition. And frankly, I am in no position to voice any comments but only to give my listening ear and comfort words.

I am not in my bestest mood right now. Its always better to know lesser, better still don't ever realise it. BUT WHYYYYYY DID I ?!?! arghhhh. sad and ugly truth. its really too late!

One lighter note to add, I passed both my Grammar and Linguistics test. I promise I will never do last minute study anymore. Mentioning about my Linguistics, if ya'll remember I actually didn't have my notes (hell knows where all had gone to..) and I called up my friend at 10plus night time to ask for help. Luckily I had the textbook which I had to memorise every content in it. definitely killed me. I still took the time to do the mock test and went fb for a while plus checking out my blackboard notes. haha. very ganjiong spider yet multi-tasking! tsktsk. only managed to sleep like 3 hours before going to school for the actual test. I wonder how did I do it!?!?! bad habit that I have to change!

I took me zillions of hours to post this. I had a hard time reading all the technical details in Jiawen's mp report just now. And I did managed to finish editing later :)

Till then, adios folks.

* * * * *

Hommie chat log part X goes like this:

sannndy ♥ says:
anyway.......... hope.. we built up this friendship over 7 years..
not bcos of a common girl we knw..
if u get what i mean

teck.. says:
haha i was jus jk de lar
dun need to read so much into it
still say im sensitive
dunno whos the one o.O

teck.. says:
anyway rmb ar love = give in moderation
i think its a gd reminder ar
frm exp de
nt frm me though

sannndy ♥ says:
LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u also rmber...

相对无言/萧亚轩



我只想离开爱上你的阴天
有时候
只是想让自己冷静一点
怎么料想我离不开你的身边
厌倦了伤心流泪
却不争气的留恋
我讨厌自己原谅你的一切
有时候
只想让自己勇敢一点

遍体鳞伤却又走回你的身边

如此放下是想让彼此都
好过些

Everything about you, is my business no more!

I am just back from a not very fruitful Batam trip :/

P6 farewell celebration on friday and my students suspected that I am together with Mr Jonathan Teo! omg. sadly we cannot explain our complicated r/s to them. haha. left later and off to town shoppinggggg :D

* * *

A few months ago I had the weirdest dream. and its like a deja vu now. I don't know how to explain. But seems like the person that I just met falls exactly to the description of the person that I had dreamt of in my dreams. the thing is I never encounter this person in my life at all, until recently. And this dream was so long back! hmm...


I want to sleep more. I am growing fat. boohooo. hate it.

I just wonder, do you ever, think of me, anymore, do you?

Browsing my old picture folders

I really miss your smile, our good old times and you, my cheeky currybun.

The is no one else to replace you in my heart, I promise okay.

Do you remember what I gave you last xmas?

Oh, you make me smile (:

Though it rained and flooded today, but I managed to get out of my comfort zone for a good retail therapy theme "End of Exams". bluff who. haha :p

Therapy ended with shopping bags and a sumptuous dindin at Marche where I saw GJ's bro and I msged him immediately. as usual he can't recognise me cos its been like almost 5 years ago! very impressive that he is now the manager of Marche and got hitched recently.

& from now, I am not going to be a bimbo (which everyone calls me) and restricting myself from buying or even mentioning branded stuffs. plus no clubbings, unless occasions. I AM CHANGING FOR GOOD.

th was asking me about his failed plan for our meetup this week, and in our random chat, I told him I am actually not making use of X, yet I am just letting him to show and prove that I should not demote myself just to accomodate others. X is my influence to think and aim higher. Glad to say, he is a good motivator for my mentality, i like (:

I have to admit I am infatuated to him, but will not go beyond the friend status. Him entering my life at this point of time really makes a huge difference. And I am enjoying every moment of it. I know my hommie1 is worried that he's a playboy, and hommie2 feels that he cannot provide a luxurious life (like weekly restaurants/expensive gifts) at the moment for me. I am least worried about this, cus I am financially-stabled. (At the age of 21, If he has to pay off his car loan, and his uni fees, why can't I unstd? I am definitely impressed how he deferred his studies 2 years later to pursue his dream now)

enuff said.

I just saw km uploaded our Shanghai pictures! omg! I shall post some at the next entry. haha. its soooooo fugly. Tmr is another good good day! yay! short gateaway this weekend too!


Best luck for MP and Vertical Marathon okay (:

tata bed time. I wanna go BKK leh :(

END OF EXAMMMMMSSSS!

YIPPIE YAY YAY YAY! :D

Anyway, today's paper ... NOT ENOUGH TIME LORRR. didn't managed to finish everything. tsktsk. All papers are tough! like... SERIOUSLY! :(

Ok I promise I will work harder next semester and be less vulnerable to everything (:

Time for a well-deserved break! slack slack and shake shake leg! :p

Part of the List

Joyce's Birthday last friday (:

Saizeriya - Timbre Arts House (love!) - China One @ Clark Quay

many random friends came to join and go. anyway it was a great night despite me wearing slippers out thinking I can escape from clubbing. well i did thou. but ChinaOne has a dancefloor and I was forced to. hmm. Deb dedicated a song for tiangx4 and jon really danced Nobody among the crowd. sodsod again. lol.

Anyway something happened to my hair. I can be out of my mind some times. Its black that I like it thou. 330am after I came home from supper with ultimate crave for tau huay.

Saturday was a great night spent at jies house. from 1030 till next morning 530am and we decided to go to the market for breakfast. i backed out cos i was too tired and had to study for exams. boohoo. I love bonding sessions like this with them. thanks jie1 for that delicious burger! and jie2 for the super chio bookmark from Korea! and nosepatch and hp accessory.

Kids are really something these days. my babysis sang and dance SorrySorry last night. I was shocked by this 8 year old. wow wow wow! if jon changes his mind, den Studio Wu shall be it!

Adios everyone,

I SERIOUSLY WANT TO WATCH 2012!!!!!!

They're part of the list
Things that miss things that I miss
things like your funny little laugh or the way you smile or the way we kiss
what I notice is this
I come up with
Something new every single time that I sit and reminisce

Hello polaroid girl!

I really hate MCQs. there is only right/wrong! and for example like u get first half of the question correct, and the second half wrong, YOU ARE STILL WRONGGG! get it or not? Grammar and Linguistics KILLED me totally today. rahhhrahhh.

ALL OF US had lost momentum to study for math paper this coming wed. tsktsk. which explains why am i still online right now chatting at different chat logs. haha :p BUT! i am extremely HAPPY that i logged in to MSN today! YAY! ><


One more paper to go! i have mixed feelings. part of me wanting more time to study for my math, part of me wanting it to end fast so I can switch to holiday mode. psst. so contradicting can :/


Sianxxzzzz. adios.

RAWRRRRRRR!

I have 10 hours from now without sleep to study for my tomorrow's papers (2 FREAKING ENGLISH PAPERS!!!)

And best thing is I don't have the full set of my notes with me :/ & I must finish reading the whole textbook and remember all the key points for the test :s

wish me luck. I am so so so so so dead. to laugh or to cry?

What happen to working it out?

Baby can we make up now? cos I can't sleep through the pain...

Am I too late now?

I can't stop crying now. All the while I kept blaming you for everything, but it was actually my fault all along. I am really sorry baby. I am lost of what to do.. and I can't stop my tears at all... why did I let you go so easily this time?

Assurance & Freedom

The decision I made ruined myself completely today. i regretted totally.
I've already been so consistent, yet me being so foolish, thinking that everything will be under control. It stirred up my emotions once more, and i really cried my heart out this time for being so hideous of my own feelings. the 2 weeks had been completely wasted. really.

Now that I have known the reasons, don't tell me about there's still feelings and all. Don't tell me all the nicest things in the world. because nth is able to replace your absence. zillions of sorry can never ever make up for whats left undone. I really miss your presence in my life, yet I don't know when will you return one day.

Yeah, I am the bad one in this r/s afterall. All my fault for not being a good girlfriend to you. & there is no more chance to make up to you. sighs. It really takes lots of fate to meet one random person in your life and make him your lifetime partner. I've found mine, but turns out it didn't last.

I hate myself for ruining this relationship with my own hands. It was me who took you for granted all these while yet blaming you for everything. And at the end, you kept those reasons from everyone, even your family. I know they wanted our r/s to last, but now to their disappointment that it couldn't.

Lets stop contacting each other from now on. I can't move on with us hanging like this. Its really killing me. Every details of you takes me a step backwards. I am trying to avoid everything about you as much as I can already.

If I had cherished the good old times we shared. I really miss you very much.

If you have broken dreams
Just lay them all on me
I'll be the one who understands
So take my hand

If you reach emptyness

You know I'll do my best
To fill you up with all the love
That I can show someone
I promise you you'll never walk alone

Well if you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again

When you need someone to love you
Here I am

Allan's 21st

Just back from Allan's 21st! LAST 21ST BIRTHDAY I AM ATTENDING THIS YEAR! YAY. LOL!

I can't sleep after doing all the ibanking stuffs. zzzz. anyway Allan's bday spells "dirty and disgusting"! his friends tied him to the lamp post with scotchtape and covered his face with chocolate cake, plus poured the liquid in the light stick on him, and a few bottles of drinks as well. ewwwwwww ~ All the pics are ugly and digusting!

Budget Banner. haha boyyyys.

Girly cake can :s

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALLAN! PLS DON'T GROW TALL ANYMORE OKAYYY :D

NICEEEEE :)) Poor Allan trying so hard to struggle! DAMN DISGUSTING CANNN!!!! more disgusting pics in JH's cam! My individual shot with him. He's so dirty and I wanted him to keep away from me! lol.
His friend made his guest book! drawn by his friend!

First page.

He got 3 watches!

And the most chio one is ours! very blur cuz he is constantly moving! haiyo.

Lastly jy came directly from airport from her Korea trip!

After this party, I can conclude i have alot of jiu gui friends (friends who loves drinking!) They'll be my maid of honour next time to help me drink. haha! anddd jy say if my future husband cannot drink as well as them, I need to consider marrying him! lol! :D

ok bed time sooooon! hope those pics uploaded by jiemei turns out goood! if not I am not going to talk to him anymore. hahaha :D my day is not very productive. i managed to study some math. not yet practiced. :(

till then, adios.

Marian's 21st

Just back from Marian's 21st Birthday at Hort Park! Thanks for the invite girl :D

Share some photos here! Its only me gerri and marian, cos they are the only people I knw at the party! hahaaha ;D

I have no idea while I look so sick/pale/restless/cui/tired/lack of love etc etc in all these picturess... :( my immune system break down yesterday. I am now having flu, fever and migrane. woah combo! last week I was only having cough, so i drank some cough syrup irregularly hoping it will recover. well it did, but other sickness came one after another. Since last week i wasnt eating and sleeping well because of school, and when i finally get to rest, i fall sick. zzz.

ok photos time! i find it easier share visuals at blogger :)

We bought her beautiful purple roses :)

Her guestbook :D

Cake with sparkle candles!

I love this picture taken by Gerri!

After hearing stories today, I realise sometimes one can drive us silly and blind. One can never see, know and understand how much hurt and worries you had gone through just for them, let alone the things you had given in. yet, there is just one thing that keeps it going which is LOVE. so unexplanable.

Sometimes it was till the extend of hurting ourselves just to prove us better. contradicting isn't it? sighs.

well, I am also a victim for this, and I am trying to do the best I can to love myself more. there is nothing in this world that time can erase away the details, its only your choice to stop thinking of it and get it off your mind.

2am again, gotta to sleep and nurse my sickness. sighs. I am home alone this weekend. i enjoy the serenity though. haha. but sick and alone at the same time makes me so miserable :( I want hot porridge and hot milo :( Allan's 21st party tmr. guess it's the last 21st I am attending. hahaha :D

tata world. & shit thing is... I have yet to study for my math test. tsktsk. bad omen. I am so in love with this song by Colbie Caillat- Falling for you :)))