Yay! I'm back from Hokkaido with big big bagss! We bought a super huge box of chocolates, a box of fresh scallops and many other tidbits! is really alot! This is the first time i got shopping phobia! My mum reallly super pro! trying to max out all her credit cards and finish all her YEN! *salute* At least 2 baggages, 3 hand carrys, 2 huge boxes, and at least 4 HUGE paper bags from the duty free. OMGGGGGG!
I watched twice of G.I. Joe on the plane because of Channing Tatum! SOOOOOOOOOOO HANDSOME! and Jay Chou in another show too!!! Now I am so in love with Hello Kitty! shit. haha :p
It was snowing consecutively and we had a great hot spring soak for 3 days! shioknessss! Everyday I have my Tamago and MILK! I sweared before that I am going to drink milk to my hearts content over there, and I did it! awesomely happy lah! LOL! And i tell you, everything is super delicious! but the price are all so steep :s
My camera's LCD died on me after getting caught in the snow. argh. tsktsk. very upset. but nevermind! I shall bring for servicing or get a new one. And a SLR is a must buy! even mum supports me! yay!
I am super excited that I am meeting my YJR today and tmr! get to see pw tooooo! yay!! super happy! 2010 is coming and I had done enough of reflections, and the goals I wanna achieve in the coming year!
lalalalala~ very good moood! I see my loots and I am quite happy. hehe. I see facebook I am happy too. 7days i was deprived from it. awww. I binged on zi cha last night after touching down. slurps.
I smile when I see your fb comment. aha! came at the right time when I was about to board my flight! teeheeeheeee. KAI XIN!
come back with visuals okay! lalalalalala~
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
I almost put it down, and you have to bring it all up again. why?
Just watched Bodyguard and Assassin! VERY NICE! :D and we talked about our 5 year goal plan! I am really panicky and stress! *sulks* People around me makes me more matured and very worried about my future now. hmm.
Anyway, Bike Rally & Sundown in year 2010. cooool yo!
I don't know if you are reading this, but if you wanna make my life better, please completely make your presence absent from my life can? I cannot be your friend. Although I know my life will be super miserable if I don't know even get to receive your call or sms anymore, but I have to walk through it, you get what I mean? Don't be so selfish and hold me back when you know I am willing to give up almost everything just for you, and stop me from moving on with my life. I know it takes a long time for me to heal. but I wanna do it. If not I cannot carry on with life at all. I am tired, and fear of you. I no longer smile because you made my day. My fear because you cannot give me the assurance. I don't know when is the next moment you are gonna leave me again. I'm definitely sure that we were both very happily together before. I remembered once when I initiated a breakup, i asked you will u ensure that I will be happy with you? you told me you don't know and was afraid to give me empty promises. After that, I am really insecured till I have no idea what kind of gf can I be for you anymore...
hmm enuff said. Its always emo roller coaster ride after anything about you. sighs. Anyway my results are out. I got an average of Bs, and will work harder next semester as promised! this sem is totally crap and I don't know what kind of life am I leading even. the ups&downs this semester really pushed me very hard, thanks to my friends who constantly kept me updated.
Anyway, Bike Rally & Sundown in year 2010. cooool yo!
I am leaving for Hokkaido in barely a few hours time! extremely excited! YAY! :D
thanks everyone who had texted me to enjoy and have a safe trip! I am happy indeed! gonna meet wen at the airport later! hehes.
I havent been to a proper holiday for so long. last year I refused to go for any holiday cos I don't wanna lose any time that I could spend with you. Even the 3 day bkk trip I prayed so hard that I don't have to go. And when I went Aussie, I really didn't wanna go, and I wanna faster come back just to see you and hug you. But this time round, touring seemed so different. Cos I know I don't have you to look forward to when I come back, I don't have to miss and worry about you.
sad to say, I miss you dearly. but I tried to forget EVERYTHING about you. I still care and be by your side when u needed me. today is tangyuan festival. and I remember last year was spent at your place having dinner with your family. I miss the times we used to spend tgt, but its now all memories for me to keep. I have to confess that my life hadn't been really good after you left. but i don't wanna admit it. Cos I thought I was strong enough, but ended up i suffered in silence alone and I dare not let anyone know about it.
I don't know if you are reading this, but if you wanna make my life better, please completely make your presence absent from my life can? I cannot be your friend. Although I know my life will be super miserable if I don't know even get to receive your call or sms anymore, but I have to walk through it, you get what I mean? Don't be so selfish and hold me back when you know I am willing to give up almost everything just for you, and stop me from moving on with my life. I know it takes a long time for me to heal. but I wanna do it. If not I cannot carry on with life at all. I am tired, and fear of you. I no longer smile because you made my day. My fear because you cannot give me the assurance. I don't know when is the next moment you are gonna leave me again. I'm definitely sure that we were both very happily together before. I remembered once when I initiated a breakup, i asked you will u ensure that I will be happy with you? you told me you don't know and was afraid to give me empty promises. After that, I am really insecured till I have no idea what kind of gf can I be for you anymore...
hmm enuff said. Its always emo roller coaster ride after anything about you. sighs. Anyway my results are out. I got an average of Bs, and will work harder next semester as promised! this sem is totally crap and I don't know what kind of life am I leading even. the ups&downs this semester really pushed me very hard, thanks to my friends who constantly kept me updated.
Advance Merry Christmas everyone! have a wonderful celebration okay! I'll be back in time for countdown (:
hello X, you make me smile unknowingly when I talk or think about you. oh no! (:
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
You made my day again,somehow? haha :p
I am leaving for Hokkaido tmr! will be back on the 29th December! YAY :D Finally leaving sg again to spend xmas, in Japan this year! seriously I don't like xmas in sg at all. haha boringgggg!
As promised, visuals!
1) Out with El & baby zaizai (in her tummy), Tiangx4 to Town for shopping and makan cum gossip session! the Japanese food at Ottoya was awesome goood! located at Orchard Central! Shop shop eat eat, bought clothes and slacked at starbucks! Me love threadinggg! <3
As promised, visuals!
1) Out with El & baby zaizai (in her tummy), Tiangx4 to Town for shopping and makan cum gossip session! the Japanese food at Ottoya was awesome goood! located at Orchard Central! Shop shop eat eat, bought clothes and slacked at starbucks! Me love threadinggg! <3
2) I bought a flower hairclip, testing testing! hiaohiao vainpot LOL :p
3) Out with JW to catch Princess & the Frog at Cathay! met him at tamp before going town. shopped around after movie and finally settled at Ion's Teppanyaki! :p
4) My super chio bimbimb earphones! very happy loot! I hate purple but I have no choice cos this is soooooooooo cute!
5) Coca Steamboat with Jon, Tiangx4 and Yayin. We ordered alot of foood! and it was super fresh and nice! ok I recommend u all to go try! thou the price is super steep! but its good food! me love! had been craving for super long! if not for eugene, I might alrdy have it can :s
3) Out with JW to catch Princess & the Frog at Cathay! met him at tamp before going town. shopped around after movie and finally settled at Ion's Teppanyaki! :p
4) My super chio bimbimb earphones! very happy loot! I hate purple but I have no choice cos this is soooooooooo cute!
5) Coca Steamboat with Jon, Tiangx4 and Yayin. We ordered alot of foood! and it was super fresh and nice! ok I recommend u all to go try! thou the price is super steep! but its good food! me love! had been craving for super long! if not for eugene, I might alrdy have it can :s
We ordered alot more than this! yumyum!
Jon's 2 besties came over to pass him his bday present Sony's Satio HP lor! look at this ah gong so happy can! lol! (top from left : Vincent, yayin, ME!, joyce, XH)
6) Bugis with NTUianssss! Met Kb to shop around at BJ before meeting the rest. We had Chong Qing steamboat! omg they can really eat I tell u! it was the first time i sat so long for a steamboat session and their appetite was SCARYYY! hahaha :D
Decided to sing KTV at Top One later. Went over to Ah Chew for dessert! YAYYYY :D I will never ever go Top One again cos it STINKS and they served the drinks an hr later after we ordered. plus its so cramp for the 8 of us! We started singing at 11pm, and everyone were tired at abt 1plus.. so Cheewee aka Jinmao (I gave his this nickname!) suggested we play some games. We paired up and are supposed to take turns to sing the song that comes up next. losers must drink the yucky half of the huge cup of drink. jinmao and his partner Kelvin lost first! HAHA! and the song was so kuku until they anyhow sing. eddie tried to be lara when him n jinde sang shan hu hai. ok the guy pairs always kena duets that they found it so hard to hit the high key. LOL! and when i sang duets with jinmao i really wanna burst out laughing lorr! Super funny lah! u know the lyrics are so mushy, but wrong guy still must sing with feeling some more! lol! we had so much fun! VIVI U SHOULD COMEEE! sure laugh until stomache lah! it was until about 3am, we started singing all the random old school songs. many fell asleep already. left me, kb n jinmao last 3 standing! Finally we left at 5am plus :) photo credits to kb!
9) I was super fast at packing my baggage just now! hiaks! I feel so satisfied and looking forward to the trip! >.<
10) My HSBC sup card came! I got 3 sup cards now. thanks mom! love.
Jon's 2 besties came over to pass him his bday present Sony's Satio HP lor! look at this ah gong so happy can! lol! (top from left : Vincent, yayin, ME!, joyce, XH)
Went KTV at Teoheng later. From Taka, we walked to FEP to catch a cab, but unavail. so took train down to cityhall to catch a cab down. totally like Amazing Race cos we split into 2 groups to see who would have reached there first. lol! So fun!
Had a mini cake cutting in Katong Shopping Mall and sang jon a soft soft birthday song while waiting for avail ktv rooms(our room was given up due to 1 hr late) We sang for 1&1/2hrs @ 18$. soooo cheap and zooom zooommm fast lor!
Vincent can totally sing like A1 can! you treat me like a rose~~~ lol! My duet with him also not bad *clap clap* I sang my Che Zhan! (train stn but no getai version, too ps lol)
took some videos but no time to upload! sorry! :p
my forever favourite!
6) Bugis with NTUianssss! Met Kb to shop around at BJ before meeting the rest. We had Chong Qing steamboat! omg they can really eat I tell u! it was the first time i sat so long for a steamboat session and their appetite was SCARYYY! hahaha :D
Decided to sing KTV at Top One later. Went over to Ah Chew for dessert! YAYYYY :D I will never ever go Top One again cos it STINKS and they served the drinks an hr later after we ordered. plus its so cramp for the 8 of us! We started singing at 11pm, and everyone were tired at abt 1plus.. so Cheewee aka Jinmao (I gave his this nickname!) suggested we play some games. We paired up and are supposed to take turns to sing the song that comes up next. losers must drink the yucky half of the huge cup of drink. jinmao and his partner Kelvin lost first! HAHA! and the song was so kuku until they anyhow sing. eddie tried to be lara when him n jinde sang shan hu hai. ok the guy pairs always kena duets that they found it so hard to hit the high key. LOL! and when i sang duets with jinmao i really wanna burst out laughing lorr! Super funny lah! u know the lyrics are so mushy, but wrong guy still must sing with feeling some more! lol! we had so much fun! VIVI U SHOULD COMEEE! sure laugh until stomache lah! it was until about 3am, we started singing all the random old school songs. many fell asleep already. left me, kb n jinmao last 3 standing! Finally we left at 5am plus :) photo credits to kb!
7) Had hardcore shopping with mom and bought levis jeans and a U2 dress! plus my uniqlo's vest! super pretty! and my turtlenecks! :D
8) Shopped with tiang at Town again! Managed to get my knitted cap and many jiapalang clothes from F21 and FEP! very happy! hmm I think I bought lots of clothes this holiday can! i hide it right at the back of my wardrobe in case mum kills me when she sees them! hehe cheeky girl! :p
Had Tampopo again cos I wanted to eat the bento that kb had that day. hehe.
9) I was super fast at packing my baggage just now! hiaks! I feel so satisfied and looking forward to the trip! >.<
10) My HSBC sup card came! I got 3 sup cards now. thanks mom! love.
X popped up that I should join him for JB, but I can't. hmm enjoy ur virgin trip with your friend! :D Because I called him (his name) boy, he called me sandy the squirrel. tsk.
going for a movie tonight with ong & goh! hahahaha! tata people! bed time! going 5am already!
I really enjoy every part of our random chats. any silly topics we can talk about and how u took initiative to continue those chats.. glad that you are sharing more and more with me... Am happy (:
Monday, December 21, 2009
More of you pleassseeeee! :D
I cannot judge and make assumptions about what those had meant, and not even feel affected about it;
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I need a super huge stressball now. People around me are all getting/married, giving birth/gave birth and applying houses! and there are like either my age or a few yrs older than me. panic attack! yeah call it THE PEER PRESSURE! Seriously I don't know like whats ahead can :s
I spent this whole week shopppinggggg! yay! had Japanese food twice, once at Oottoya, the other at Ion. watched Princess and the Frog! YAY! ;D went Vivo and had Marche. Toy R Us for the 2 forever babies. bought my granny her new wheelchair. Coca Steamboat & Teo Heng Ktv, Chong Qing Steamboat and Top One Ktv! omg i duet with the most random guys can! and i cannot contain my laughters lah! LOL! And Mom paid for my stuffs too! like my Uniqlo's vest and turtle necks, Levis Jeans and U2's dress. very satisfied!
Come back with longer post maybe tmr with visuals! I am sleepy and lazy now. And my baggage is not packed yet. mom's gonna nag at me again! I have no sense of urgency at all thou my trip is this wed! I CAN'T WAITTTTT!!!!! :D
yippie yay yay yay yay yay!!!!!!!!!!
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I need a super huge stressball now. People around me are all getting/married, giving birth/gave birth and applying houses! and there are like either my age or a few yrs older than me. panic attack! yeah call it THE PEER PRESSURE! Seriously I don't know like whats ahead can :s
I spent this whole week shopppinggggg! yay! had Japanese food twice, once at Oottoya, the other at Ion. watched Princess and the Frog! YAY! ;D went Vivo and had Marche. Toy R Us for the 2 forever babies. bought my granny her new wheelchair. Coca Steamboat & Teo Heng Ktv, Chong Qing Steamboat and Top One Ktv! omg i duet with the most random guys can! and i cannot contain my laughters lah! LOL! And Mom paid for my stuffs too! like my Uniqlo's vest and turtle necks, Levis Jeans and U2's dress. very satisfied!
Come back with longer post maybe tmr with visuals! I am sleepy and lazy now. And my baggage is not packed yet. mom's gonna nag at me again! I have no sense of urgency at all thou my trip is this wed! I CAN'T WAITTTTT!!!!! :D
yippie yay yay yay yay yay!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, December 18, 2009
Mistakes should never be repeated
- not our fault, it's your fault.
- I should trust you, even now, but I was overly sensitive.
- I felt like a guinea pig.
- I am enduring for the next few more weeks and I'll be able to repay what's done.
- I seriously can't wait for 2010 so my heart feels lighter.
- I'm not spending my days wisefully, just thinking of ways to make time run faster.
- cutting off ties pple, sorry.
Rahhrahhrahhhhhh I'm really very unhappyyyyy!!!!!!!!!! I hateeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!! Smellyy poooo pooooo eggg la u!!!!!
- I should trust you, even now, but I was overly sensitive.
- I felt like a guinea pig.
- I am enduring for the next few more weeks and I'll be able to repay what's done.
- I seriously can't wait for 2010 so my heart feels lighter.
- I'm not spending my days wisefully, just thinking of ways to make time run faster.
- cutting off ties pple, sorry.
Rahhrahhrahhhhhh I'm really very unhappyyyyy!!!!!!!!!! I hateeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!! Smellyy poooo pooooo eggg la u!!!!!
Monday, December 14, 2009
As long as I keep thinking this way...
I had been rotting at home for the pass few days and growing fat! cos i can't walk! only eat,watch tv, sleep! tsktsk! I went East Shore Hospital A&E too. booohoooo. but my legs are recovering! (I ASSUME :P) I skipped swimming, ktv,movies and St James Powerhouse this week :( Jy called me at 3am and told me that hommie and bf's friends got into a fight at St James.tsk not first time already can. sighs. no comment.
Thanks jies for coming over to visit me! I am really happyyyyyy! Bicycle tyre pumps and starbucks love! I am so looking forward for wenwen to come home from Switzerlanddddd! we shall have a YJR reunion dinner on 30th and 31st TBC! YAY YAY YAY :D I shall sponsor alcohol(s) as promised. HAHAHA :D
I'm skipping Cheng Kwang (Howard)'s 21st birthday. had a clash with my holiday. so no more 21st this year! yippie yay yay! but nxt month in jan, I'm attending a 21st again can. anyway managed to escape and avoid unnecessaries.
Jiemei's bday celebration this friday! venue: Coca Steamboat!!!! YAY :D super excited! Hope nobody flies aeroplane lor. LOL!
some visuals: Tampopo last week with NTUians! :D
MY FAVOURITE TAMAGOOOOOOOOO! YUMMMYYYYY!
Mariam's Wedding :D
Yep I managed to attend today (: with all the plasters all around. LOL! people gave me damn weird stares up&down AND I don't unstd why. I shopped today lor! HAPPYYYYY :D
Very emo at home (5 days!), need some fresh air can...
Some of our OEPS colleagues :)
Nice catchup with everyone! I really miss my tanaka kazushige sunshine sobsob. I wonder how is he? haven't seen him since mid-autumn festival. hmm. okie dokies. bed time now! so tired! adios.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
it was a bad fall :(
I had a packed schedule this week but I can't go out anymore :(
we went swimming on monday, and on tues I had a bad fall during cycling. and i fell twice. tsktsk. now my ankle is swollen and there's like 2 vampire bite deep cut. blood flowed non-stop can. and my whole leg is full of blue blacks. every my chin too! sob sob.
this pic was taken before the wounds got worst. thanks yy for doing all the bandages for me :p
After I came back from GP and the chinese physician. I screamed and cried at the chinese physician there can. very painful! :( and I have to xray for my ankle. so ps lah, I had to sit on the wheelchair to the doctor cos I can't walk at all :(
I am not going for xray, i don't care. anyway shar was talking about her SCM 21km run. and we're going for sundown nxt year! thou she is persuading us for 21km, but I can't train now at all. so I am aiming for 10km only. many many friends went for this year's SCM too! be it 10,21 or 42km.
hurry get well please! I wanna go out! initially we wanted to go swimming again! but now cannot :( and hope the scars recovers fast! wahhh damn sianxzxzxx. thanks friends for all of your concern. I promise I will be ok by next week so we all can go out. YAY! :D I already had 3 jabs and taking antibiotics!
my white xmas in Hokkaido! I'm cominggggggg! :p
we went swimming on monday, and on tues I had a bad fall during cycling. and i fell twice. tsktsk. now my ankle is swollen and there's like 2 vampire bite deep cut. blood flowed non-stop can. and my whole leg is full of blue blacks. every my chin too! sob sob.
this pic was taken before the wounds got worst. thanks yy for doing all the bandages for me :p
After I came back from GP and the chinese physician. I screamed and cried at the chinese physician there can. very painful! :( and I have to xray for my ankle. so ps lah, I had to sit on the wheelchair to the doctor cos I can't walk at all :(
I am not going for xray, i don't care. anyway shar was talking about her SCM 21km run. and we're going for sundown nxt year! thou she is persuading us for 21km, but I can't train now at all. so I am aiming for 10km only. many many friends went for this year's SCM too! be it 10,21 or 42km.hurry get well please! I wanna go out! initially we wanted to go swimming again! but now cannot :( and hope the scars recovers fast! wahhh damn sianxzxzxx. thanks friends for all of your concern. I promise I will be ok by next week so we all can go out. YAY! :D I already had 3 jabs and taking antibiotics!
my white xmas in Hokkaido! I'm cominggggggg! :p
Mad
I cannot always carry the mindset that, when you're here, I'm gonna be real fine.
Bullshit, I am going to live better. Small/big setbacks shall not stop me from moving on :D
Only good things last, so you were not my good thing at all.
Sayo. I am wheelchair bound now. Booohoooo.
Bullshit, I am going to live better. Small/big setbacks shall not stop me from moving on :D
Only good things last, so you were not my good thing at all.
Sayo. I am wheelchair bound now. Booohoooo.
Monday, December 7, 2009
Weekend feasting, ended up with a fat fat tummy. LOL!
Partyworld ktv.
Oasis porridge supper!
Mcdonalds at Clementi taking a break from Orange Valley.
Jack's Place & Teadot with YJR.
Ramen Ten,red bean fishy and Tampopo! with ntuians.
Chinatown Point's 地茂馆 for dimsum and Satay at night.
FATNESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!
oohhhhh! 313 Somerset has F21 and Marche! now we don't have to go Vivo anymore :p EXCITTTEDDDD!
你是讨厌鬼！！！！！！！！我不想和你说话！！！！！
Oasis porridge supper!
Mcdonalds at Clementi taking a break from Orange Valley.
Jack's Place & Teadot with YJR.
Ramen Ten,red bean fishy and Tampopo! with ntuians.
Chinatown Point's 地茂馆 for dimsum and Satay at night.
FATNESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!
oohhhhh! 313 Somerset has F21 and Marche! now we don't have to go Vivo anymore :p EXCITTTEDDDD!
你是讨厌鬼！！！！！！！！我不想和你说话！！！！！
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Friday, December 4, 2009
当你遇到困难时，第一个想到的人是你最在乎的吗？
不知道自己想说什么，也不知道自己该做什么。人生真的变得好没有意义，时间度日如年，还必须强颜欢笑。安静了几天，我想了非常多。原来你我都渴望自由，去追去自己的梦想。但却忘了有个他（她）守在身旁，等着与你分享这段喜悦，或在你最无助的时候守护在你身边。
我很想知道你心里在想什么但是我没有勇气去问你，因为我不再像以前那样，会认为我是你心中的一切。我很懦弱，害怕听到我在这段感情里有多失败，害怕看到你眼里那不理会的眼神，害怕你告诉我你的心里话。
那些回忆像一根根的针往我心上轧，我不明白为什么我们要这样的欺骗自己。难道我们不能放下自尊好好地说清楚吗？
我记得，第一次分手时，我用一个星期的努力来等待和挽回我们的未来，但我没等到。虽然在一个月后我们又回到彼此的身边。这次也让我等了一个星期了吧，你还是不肯说。果断一点，我想帮自己做这个决定。
我想放手后，不再去管人家的闲言闲语，自己好好地把人生的路走好。
谁说放手容易？
谢谢你的爱。
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