I hope the huge tide will be over soon

I have to be strong during this period of time. I must not be a crybaby now and then. I cannot be overly paranoid or sensitive over matters. Yes, I am going to work towards it.

I miss my kong.

I received a saddening news today before my CT observation. I was so worried and affected about it. sighs.

CT Observation 1 :

On my part, I felt that I didnt do well cos of class management. When I spoke to my ct abt it, she said she wasn't much looking into class management and more of teaching ideas only. which meant I escaped somehow. likely she knew how her class was and I was new, so she didnt really take consideration into that. There were some minor areas I had to take note of only. I was rather upset with my class today, cos they were abit noisy and uncontrollable. I'm afraid they will be like this when Sup and NSC sits in tmr. I am so stress. Initially was only Sup alone, but NSC told us at the last min that she was coming in and had to send her our lp by 9pm. arghhh. super stress! I reflected on myself later if my class was too noisy and all, or was I too anal about noise and minor stuffs. Probably I set high expections of them to behave well when my ct sits in, over demanding? Or was it like you know I could not handle the bad news and I started to feel quite helpless about it? I scolded them till my tears wanna burst. seriously. Like this was my very first time so angry about it. I don't want them to be like this tmr. really. I am so scared. hais. 2 more obs to go, and let me clear by this friday. Rushing all my lp for obs now. so much things are lagged at the back, gonna clear it by next week. I miss my bed super much.

This week had been seriously torturous, I thought it was a good news for me to clear everything by this fri, apparently it wasnt. sighs. I am now praying very hard for her recovery. I hope she can pull through these 2 days. God's so unfair, how can you suddenly decide to want to take a person's life away without giving any notices before hand? She had been so nice and friendly everytime. Please let her discharge from ICU soon, will You? I wanted to go to the hospital right now, but I guess it wasn't anappropriate time to go. sighs. I don't wanna mention anything further about this, cos I know she is going to get well by tomorrow! I KNOW!
jia you........we can't wait to hear your laughters again. I really feel quite useless.. I can't see to help in anything at all..hais..


Baby I miss you alot too, really. Once my stuffs are cleared, I might take a MC this Monday.

I am so lame :/

[c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] says:
aiyo bb ar
u are my pearl in my heart leh
i where will want to see u sad
sannndy says:
heart where will have pearl de..
u dun bluff
thats tumor
[c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] says:
-.-
choi

From the bottom of my heart;

I feel so unappreciative of what my boy had done for me sometimes. And for this I can slap myself a million times for picking up a fight with him over nothing. I'm trying hard to control what he called my 'princess temper' and not quarrelling over peanut matters. And you know, despite every single time I'm like this, he'll always do silly actions just to hoax me and put a mega watt smile on my face.

Baby, you are really very important to me, just like I'm the brain and you are my heart. We can never do without each other. I don't know what made me wanna type this, but I don't wanna miss a chance telling you how much I treasure you and always want you to be by my side.

While typing this I wanna cry already can. I finally know what's time flies and I absolutely don't want this Sunday to come so fast! :(

One more week.... :(

Boy was super irritating can, kept telling me "one more week/7 more days..." I am emoing like madness lah. My tears just filled my eyes and it started to trickle once I heard them. I AM SUPER SAD U KNOW ANOT RAYMOND KONG! :(((

Anyway I was out at Phuture with boy and his friends. Partied till 4am can. super zonked out lah. haha :D funnn! me love! but after he witnessed how I was approached at club, boy refused to let me go clubbing anymore with my friends! I was begging and pleading him, and all he said was "over my dead body.." LOL! so I asked "I can only go if you are dead?" he said "yes...." -.-
super tsktsktsk cannn! AND I SAW MY SHANNON BOYYY! OMG! SO CUTE! HAHA YAY! :D
I dunno if my boy was jealous when he hugged me. hahahahaha :p

Today was out at town to polish my tco necklace. hehs and we had lots of food! my tummy wanna burst already! plus I put on 3 kg since feb can! :(

Despite having like a mountain of hmwk to mark, I am heading to bed soon, so tired can! I can't wait for TA to end, obs to end, and hols to come!


I wanna manage my emotions very much. *Pouts*
T.T

Love, should be happy and enjoyable.

I'm super lethargic to max. Weekend hurry come, I need a break, a new bag, a new bracelet, and a good good manicure.


10 more days to go. Time is so precious but I can't seem to get a share of it. sighs. I'm really very affected and emo about it. I wonder how am I suppose to go through all the days w/o you?

I need to change my mindset super much!

Sat:

At Uncle Bobby's place having bbq and everyone enjoyed themselves (: WN was super nice to bake David a bday cake thou everyone was complaining that the cake looked like 2 pieces of black 'fa gao' held by a cement in the center. haha. what a description lah! cos the oreo cream really looked like some cement or something. lol. but its effort that counts! So sweet to have a friend to bake you a cake on your bday (: cab home later from jurong, super tired and still had to chiong my lesson plans. argh.


Sun: David treated us to Ion's Watami and we got him an ipod nano for his birthday (: I bought a zara belt and a SK necklace for aunt's bday. Zara was having mad sales, but i got no shopping urge! what is wrong with me??? :( I don't feel like shopping recently! I feel so upset can. boohoo.


Anyway gotta chiong lp again. I was at the sick bay today cos i had an abdominal pain and I almost wanna faint during flag raising. it really scared me out. luckily the pain subsided after lik a few hours. phews. Almost gt a SS impromptu lesson obs today! but i managed to escape. hehs. Hope my tummy feels better tmr.


My boy is serving the nation in 2 weeks time. My feelings went up and down like a roller coaster. Part of me feeling so emo about it, yet the other part tells me that I'm matured enough to handle it. plus he'll definitely book out during national day and there wont be 2 weeks of confinement. hmm. I feel so like...... sad. I get super affected. I wanna spend more time with him but I can't cos I have too much commitments and he had to meet up with his friends too. I don't know how should I juggle my time properly. Yep and I'm already scarificing my sleep just to maximise all my time already. Unless boy has something to do, then I would go catch up on my sleep. '

I'm like totally very screwed up in all ways lah. I had also been taking lots of med recently and putting my health at risk, not knowing what side effects they have on my body. yeah, i'm really taking my health like a joke. I have no choice, I feel damn crappy. I hope all these bad feelings goes off soon.


xoxo.

Endless fall sick.

Find a partner, talk about future, get married, raise children.
What exactly is the appropriate age to really start all these?






you say: "We try to work out ok?"
I say: " Hope so bah...."

I have to kick away my princess temper.......

Another brand new journey

Good luck to me and other ST who are going to conduct lesson for their first proper time.
JIA YOU :D

I'm feeling super ultimate stress.

Scary!

I woke up at 4am and realised I was covered with bumps all over! It was itchy at the same time! I got so freaked out and started to cry then mum helped me apply all kinds of lotion on my body and I took some med before going to bed again. my skin was like millions of needles piercing when i leaned on it. I thought I was going to die at that time and wanted to wake mum up to go to A&E or call an ambulance. I didn't know allergy to antibiotics can be so scary! Thou I knew I'm allergic to certain painkillers and if i ever consume them, my eyes will swell, but lil did I know I was also allergic to other medicine as well :s

Anyway luckily everything subsided, and I went to my GP later in the morning to follow up.My eyes still swelled a little thou :( Boy came down to tamp to have dinner with me and checked out my condition before he went for his training. so sweet! We met only for 45 mins before he had to leave :( yay yay tmr we're going uncle bobby's place for bbq! sunday will be celebrating david's bday!

I need to chop chop get my work done! :D
I realised I pretty mean sometimes but I really can't help it can. LOL! urm... haha yay yay baby ordered me a HK casing! hehe. I so feel like buying something now can. hoho.


2 weeks more..... :(

thank you baby for your support & care all these while (:

I'm still at my math lp skeleton. shit. hurry chop chop think of ideas and finish it! 11 lp and one reflection up next! I miss my bed! I miss my baby too! super worn out to max. rashes rashes go away. don't ever come back again.... booohooo...

Filled with L O V E

I was sobbing so badly over the phone with baby just now, cos of my super bad day. And boy came later and accompany me throughout. thanks baby, love you much much :)

I know I always throw big big tantrums like a child. sorry ok? smile :) HAPPY 20TH! :D

GREAT REUNION AFTER SYDNEY! :D

It was a great catch up dinner with Aunty Eve, Tim and Aunty Nancy's family!
Thanks Aunty Nancy for her treat, AGAIN! I feel so bad can. Next time when Aunty Eve returns, it'll be our treat! hope Aunty Eve loves the present from boy & me. hehe.

And Aunty Nancy texted me just now, saying that we're so thoughtful to get smth for Aunty Eve and Raymond is a nice guy. I SUPER LOL LOL LOL TO MAX! HAHAHA :D opps* ok I'm actually super happy and proud of boy for making a good impression. My naggings and everything worked! yay hard work paid off. hehe. boy, one fine day we must go tamp one's dessert stall to try Aunty Eve's recipe for the pomelo sago! oh, btw the stall was opened by her niece under Select is one of the company which is owned by Aunty Eve's family. It has numerous eatery and catering under Select.


Citibank's having promo for SIA to Aussie and Auckland! tempting to max. Should I fly this Aug? hahahahahaaha :D can't wait for our next trip to Aunty Eve's place in Sydney again! it would be even better now cos she had bought a car! YAY :D


Bed time soon, super tired! I'm so drained lah! tata world.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SPY! LOADS & LOADS OF LOVE FROM YJR!

My first week of TA had ended, observation is approaching and I'm feeling jitty abt it :s
I had just emailed my Prof after completing my reflection at 2am last night. Waiting for her feedbacks! hmm... LP and reflection this week.. jia you!


Sat & Sun with boy:

We had lunch & koi at home before heading to Marina sq to have Sakae Sushi and play my fav UFO catch catch. it was not a fruitful day. humpfs. Boy had to go training later, and I headed home to do work. We had Ya Kun breakfast on Sunday before watch Despicable Me! OMG! SUPER HILARIOUS AND CUTE LAH! TOTALLY ARROW3 ARROW3! Went for lunch at PS's Lao Beijing and also shopped for Aunty Eve's gift! We're having a gathering this coming Tuesday before she returns to Sydney. Boy paid for the whole set of Aussino bedsheets for her! wow! We ended our day with Koi before he sent me home (: weekends are always never enough. 3 weeks more and he'll end his freedom :(((


* * * *


Spy's 22nd Birthday at Chinatown Point & Liang Court : YJR never fails to bring me so much laughter in my life and true friendship we share is totally amazing! I love our endless topics and gossips plus I always gets a pair of earrings when I meet them. hehs! Goodwood Park's Durian cake yummy yum yum slurps*HAPPY BIRTHDAY SPY! HOPE U HAVE ALL THE WISHES COME TRUE ON YOUR 22ND! LOVE YOU :D

cos Aud asked me to see what she had posted on her fb, I decided to do smth like her. tada! what I bring on my first day of school :D

Timbre Substn with boy and The Good Fellas!

Timbre Substn with SS friends! :D
The guys not included :p

Zouk & Phuture with my girls plus Aq's bf and his friends.

thats about all! Aussie album is gonna take some time here and in FB! gonna wake up early for school tmr again, till then & night world!

I LOVE YOU

I AM F U C K STRESSED.

I feel a little feverish. no good no good.

i'm staring into my comp and I was supposed to start typing on my reflection.. but i'm totally restless. motivation can u pls come to mummy?

My boy decided to cheer me up this way:

sannndy says:
one only ar?
[c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] says:
rare de
equal to 9999 leh
sannndy says:
is it???
[c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] says:
yes
sannndy says:
prove
[c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] says:
no prove de
because this is only see in com btw our conversation
other ppl wan also dun have
sannndy says:
ohhh
[c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] says:
yup
sannndy says:
ok lor
[c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] says:
smile la
dun sian ok
where is my sunshine gal??

sannndy says:

[c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] says:

sannndy says:

c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] says:
what niao?
sannndy says:
stingy la
[c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] says:
den what to do with bird?
sannndy says:
niao lor
[c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] says:
lol
okto show the documentry very cute
about little monkey de
sannndy says:
sian la
monkey more impt den me
[c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] says:
of cos is you la
my love
[c=16]L.I.F.O.S - Raymond [/c=30] writes:

Hello excuse me Sandy Tan, can you stop binging?

boy had been feeding me like non stop hits everyday and i super hate it can! fat fat fat! rahhh.

We had an inpromptu date to the Toy Museum and caught Ip Man: The Legend

Before Zouk.

Sukiya with boy.

My super chio havaianas, hehe.

Baby and Tabby at grandma place

Dim Sum at Cathay

* * * *

Today was first day of TA. time zoomed off madly fast before I could get settled. School's expectations is really high. I'm afraid of not meeting up to their standards. btw, my school was ranked top 20 out of all schs. All staffs are helpful and nice, but i really miss my kids back at oeps! :( my tanaka kazushige :(((

I was filling in my CV last night and I was caught at the last qn. I could have given beautiful and idealistic answers 2 years ago, but now... I ponder.. Where had all the passion go to? who extinguished it?

First day and I'm terribly hopeless. felt like my first day back in oeps. I hope I could overcome like what I had did previously... sighs... tired.

Remind yourself to be faithful to your bf.

Its one of the rare Sundays that I get to sleep in! Boy came up with a whole list of places to go today, but I decided to stay at home and join the sleep marathon. I woke up at 1230 and went back to sleep again at 430, waking up at 7pm to watch tv prog and that explains why I am here at 2am!


I had a fantastic week with boy! We had his grandma's breakfast immediately the next day when we came back! yummy! thanks mummy kong for bringing home the food for us! KOI IS LOVE! Caught Toy Story 3 and had dinner at his ah ma place (: boy accompanied me to the doc on wed and we head down to MS to shop for my corporate wear and we went UFO catch catch again before we had sukiya for dinner! yay yay! :D Thurs was out to airport checking out the slide (which was so chey~~~) and shopped around, caught the movie Knight & Day before heading home. We went Liang Court for Sazeriya on sat! had the yummy gelato ice cream from a new ice cream parlour alongside central! We went for our yummlicious pudding before doing grocery shopping at Meidi-ya. eat shop eat shop, boy went for his colleague's baby 1 mth, while i went home to pack my things. We met again for Timbre chillout session! YAY! We both got super huge crave for buffalo wings can! :D It was The Good Fellas night again! its my 2nd Timbre session this week. cool :D boy says we should try and do this every week! heehee :p


Time to sleep, meeting boy for breakfast tmr! tata world :)

You will never be someone that I hated, if we never crossed each other's path before.

I wanna be better & I definitely know I can be better;

I'd made my choice;

Timbre substation with ss clique for the last time before practicum starts. There was another grp of schoolmates seated at the next table too. It was really a great night catching up with one another plus I felt all the tension, stress and momentum crawling inside me now. I guess I have lots to prepare before school starts! Sianzxzxz.

Tara really looked so pretty and adorable from her makeover (:


Boy and I went dating at T3 today and caught Knight&Day at TM. Another rare weekday spent tgt. How I wished we have so many of these weekdays to spare. Hmm alrighty, gonna sleep soon. Still having a lil jet lack.

Phuture's crowd is madness

Just back from zouk. Crowd was extremely bad that they blocked pple from entering Phuture. Tsssk.

We're initially queuing up at dbl o but the queue wasn't moving, so we drove to zouk. Didn't expect it to be worst den butter n dbl o...! Numerous guys coming up to ask if we wanna join them to dance :s I had to act as if I didn't see or hear them can, or I wld just tell them it's okay( we're so comfortable in our own circle lah!) seriously I nvr encountered anyth worst den this. We're totally surrounded closely with many guys just around us and they were so close! We tried to get out of it, but yet another circle formed again can. We gt so tired and left. The crowd control was so bad tonight! I'm exactly aware of guys in clubs cos it happened numerous times, but tonight was so different! Can u imagine like about 10 plus guys surrounding 3 girls?plus they are all fr different groups. Tsk. And my other 'dear' friends were like gone again :/ even while waiting for them outside the toilet, we felt like we're animals cage up in the zoo for their viewing can. Random guys wld just stare/look at you or come up to u and say things like 'hey pretty...' tsssk!

I'm just like a few months away from club scene, so had all things changed?