Sometimes I realise I don't know who I am anymore. Its so scary that I start questioning myself so what do I really want at the end?
I think everyone is tired of knocking senses into me, because I never preach what I say. I kept doing all the things I should not be doing. Sorry, my bad. I really wanna change, but its so difficult. Give me more time, I promise I wont disappoint anymore.
Meeting a wrong person, and getting into a failed r/s caused so much sadness aftermath. will I have the courage to pursue another r/s again? I doubt so. I don't want to be selfish and get a substitute, anyhow.
You are right, why should I agree to the request so easily, and does it mean I simply agree to be someone else's gf easily too? I know how to reject when a guy asked me out, but i chose to suck this in. I feel like a loser now.... sorry.... I am doing all kinds of wrong things.. I don't want history to repeat, I don't want to get into another person's r/s again. I just wanna be like any other couples who fall in love without any obstacles...I am really guilty for doing all those wrong things in the past...
For now, can I just meet nice people who have no ulterior motives?
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